im scared. im wOrried.

i went tO see a dOctOr jus nOw. i've caught a flu. i guess it is becOs i went tO walk in the rain a few days agO. the vOmiting feeling came back tO me when i was in the clinic. finally, i tOked tO the dOctOr abt it. he suggested me tO visit the hOspital fOr a check up aft checking On me. he dUn feel anything wrOng.



a 'pipe' will have tO gO thru my thrOat tO my stOmach. i cant face this. he didnt fOrce me tO gO. but in case anything is wrOng wit me, i decided tO gO thru it. im given a letter and tml i'll have tO gO tO the pOlyclinic tO get anOther letter tO gO tO the hOspital.



frankly speaking, im very scared and very wOrried. this prOb has stayed wit me fOr almOst 4 yrs. nOw then i decide tO find Out wads the prOb. i had alsO fOrgOttened tO tell the dOc tat i had a sudden pain in the heart tOdae. i had experienced this b4. but i didnt tell anyOne. i finalli tOld my mum jus nOw.



i wan tO be healthy. i hOpe i'll get the results as sOon as pOssible. i hOpe everything will be fine.

sick

the graduating classes are fOllowing a blOck time table currentli. up till nOw, i feel tat its still alrite. Oh ya! ade asked me tO dO up my Own time table! i fOrgOt abt it!


nik and i planned tO study frm mOn tO thurs aft sku. but i think i cant! On mOn, nic and i cudnt study at all. Onli nik did sOme wOrk. the weather was sO hOt. was is the weather tat caused it? i dun nOe. ytd, nik and i went tO the multi-purpOse rm tO study. i cudnt study tOo. my mind dun seem tO be functiOning. i was sO damn tired. i thOt i cud get a nap when i reached hm. but i cudnt even slp!


tOday, i finally caught a nap. but at the WRONG TIME! i went tO use the gas stOve tO bOil water. aft mOre than 1 hr later, i went intO the kitchen. the kettle had already dried up! lucki ther was nO explOsiOn nOr any accident, Or i'll be in hOt sOup man. i've learnt my lessOn!



i called my mum and tOld her abt it. she didnt blame me althOugh im in the wrOng, but i gave her pOor attitude. i dun nOe why, but im in a bad mOod tOdae. im nOt feeling well.



my tue night tuitiOn has changed! either On wed Or thur. but ther is nO tuitiOn tOdae. mb tml night? hahas, this is gOod man! i can watch 'Stairway tO Heaven' On tue night withOut missing any part Of it! btw, its a kOrean drama. VERY NICE. catch On mOn and tue, at 10p.m! Oh ya. ch U.



im very sOrry.

24.9.05

im blogging fOr ytd.


went Out wit peiyi. lOlx. nik was sO surprised. lOls. i went Out wit pei yi alOne! hahax. i dun mix wit her grp. we're classmates. and we dun tOk much in class! lOlx. but we've fOund Out tat we've sOme cOmmon interests. lOlx.

we were bOth late and actualli bOarded the same train. lOlx. we watched the brOthers Grimm. it's a nice shOw! wOrth the $! i was feeling unwell again ytd. cud have gOt hm earli fOr a rest. but i fOrgOt tO help my mum exchange $. she needs it tOdae. sO went alL the way frm my hse here tO kOvan. lOlx. i left Onli 5cents! i had tO gO tO the atm in Order tO get $ fOr my dinner and cab fare. lOlx.


pei yi and i have planned. aft Os, we'll gO Out wit xiangyun, my laO pO. hahax. 3 Of us has a main cOmmOn interest! sHhh. i shall keep it as a secret!

sick

i think im nOt feeling well. started feeling giddy aft recess. until nOw! i thOt having a nap will help. tOok twO naps at gm hse and it made nO difference man. i even tOld nik tO gO Out tO study tml when she asked. think i need a break tml. gO Out!



gOt sOme Of my prelim results tOday. lucky nik and i nvr skip sku tOday. lOls. almOst did. i was very happy fOr my humanities. i did well. but fOr chem, i failed again! im having tuitiOn! but stil fail! acc, failed tOo. as fOr math, gOt back p2. 50/80, but im nOt very happy wit it. im very sad today. disappOinted tOo.

rainy day-

RAINY DAY SUX!



it rainned aft sku. i hate rainny days. i gOt sO mOody and walked in the rain. i didnt like walking in the rain.



had my practicals tOdae.. 99.9% fail. im sure. i tOok abt 1 hr tO dO my chem experiments! i didnt nOe wad tO write fOr the ObservatiOns and cOnclusiOns.. sOluble? insOluble? i dun noe! i was sO cOnfused! i think my ans were almOst all the same. i didnt have enuff time tO dO my phy experiment. the last 2 qns of chem i tOtalli dun nOe a thing and left One Of it blank tO rush my phy. i dun nOe if i did the phy One cOrrectli. i left 11 marks qns blank! fOr graph, i used free hand and it sucked. hOw can a graph has thick line?



i used tO sit ther and lOok Or day dream when it cOmes tO experiments, leaving it fOr the Others tO dO. tOdae, i cant dO. :(

yeah~

yeah man!~ tml will be the last prelim paper! sci. practical! but.. we're Onli gOnna be dismissed at 1.30! gOtta wait fOr thOse peOple Of the last shift man~ tml is the last day, yet the latest prelimary exam day~ sians.


btw, gOtta gO fOr gm hse fOr dinner tml! cant fOrget abt it, Or i'll upset gm again.. i've nOt visited her fOr mOre than 2 mOnths! i used tO visit her Once a wk. im guilty Of it. luckily i went ther last fri. she tOld me she was prepared nOt tO ans any of my calls if i didnt visit her cOs i've gOt nO sku. i almOst cried when i hear tat. i wOnder if she was jus jOking. but im affected by it.

stressed.

hadnt blOg fOr 10 days! its sO lOng..


for the past 10 days, i've been stressed.. it'd been sO lOng since i last felt sO stressed.. especialli On tue nite. studied the wrong histOry chp. b4 leaving fOr tutiOn. we had spOtted the same chp, but in the end all of them changed their mind fOr anOther chp instead. On the way tO tuitOn, nik and i decided tO skip and pOstpOned the tuitiOn tO study. that nite, i went tO play swing. but the next mOrning, we were shOcked.. the chp tat we studied wasnt tested! lucky One of the qn was linked tO s.s. we managed tO do.



tOdae, i need nOt gO sku. Onli thOse who are re-taking their mt have tO gO fOr mt paper. but i have tO finish my cme proj! jy didnt dO anything tO it at all during the past 2 wks. im dOing it alOne. i cant find any useful infOrmatiOn!



O's are cOming sOon. time passes real fast. im lOoking fOrward tO 22nOv.. my last paper. i'll wOrk hard. real hard.

junxiOng-

im very happy tat JUNXIONG IS BACK! fOr qiaO yun! he didnt die.. he wasnt drOwned.. but he misunderstOod qiaO yun being married! tat baby is HIS! Omg.. anyway, im lOokin fOrward tO friday nite.. last episOde.. JunxiOng and qiaO yun will be getting married! HAPPY HAPPY ENDING!



catch (SUI JIA MU JI BU SHENG DAN ) at 2100, friday, on CH8!!!!

met nik, nic and jy fOr breakfast.. we were 1/2 late fOr mdm lOh's lessOn! the class was like taking a test.. nO One was tOking until we came in.. lOlx.. nOise pOllutiOn starts.. alL the tables were seperated except jy and i.. in the end, elye jOins us! i nOe it wasnt right tO be tOking thrOughOut the lessOn.. but mdm wasnt teaching, until the last part Of the lessOn.. anyway, i did my cOrrectiOns while tOking tOo.. anyway, nO excuses.. im at fault.. we were asO late fOr gg tutOrial.. even brOught bubble tea in fOr gg lessOn.. we didnt expect ms chee tO mind.. anyway.. i think bOth the teachers were unhappy wit us tOdae..



aft sku, elye and i cancelled Our math tuitiOn.. jus becOs we dOnt feel like having it! we went tO her hse tO watch shutter.. damn scary.. especialli wit that kinda ambience.. the previOus time we went ther tO watch eye10.. wit the same ambience.. anyway, we studied a bit aft enjOying the shOw..

mOrnings

mOrnings*! i've wOke up tOo earlie! i have 10 stupid mins tO spare.. sO.. im Online! i slept at almOst 4 last nite.. Or shd i say, this mOrning? my entire day ytd jus sucked.. except fOr tat last 3 hrs chatting wit terr? i cudnt slp.. On sO many OccasiOns, i wanted tO call him.. i didnt.. last nite was the 1st time i initiate the call.. we had nOt cOntact fOr sOme mOnths.. it's always like tat.. we're always gOing mia and back aft afew mOnths.. we'll Onli chat Or meet up aft afew mOnths and sharing Our past happenings! i wanted tO tag in his blOg, but it's having errOrs! anyway kOr, thx fOr cheering me up.. i felt realli better.. this time, i'lL listen tO u.. wO de yan jing hui kai da da de kan zhe ge shi jie..

he falls fOr anOther gal-

my mOod isnt goOd tOday.. frm the mOment i wOke up, i wasnt feeling well.. especially with this kinda weather, my mOod gOt wOrst.. but my time spent wit nik aft tutiOn,was great.. gOt very dirty due tO the rain.. jus gOt back frm the strOll.. i cud onli see 3 stars.. disappointed..


gOt a call frm jy and i shOwed him very pOor attitude.. he wasnt pissed at alL.. he made me luff instead.. i warned him i'll hit him tmL.. hOpe tat my mOod will get better aft tOnite.. he smsed me and tOld me in a funny manner tat he's available 24/7.. he's the Onli fren tat never fail tO cheer me up and allOw me tO vent my anger On whenever im feeling dOwn.. despite my attitude tOwards him and alL.. i let Our friendship dOwn Once.. due tO a guy.. we sOmehOw turned intO enemy fOr a yr? i tired hating him fOr wad he did.. i cant.. perhaps we're fated tO be friends fOr life? during tat yr, whenever i cry, he'll stil be there tO make funny faces tO cheer me up again.. he did this since sec1.. nO matter hOw sad i am, he's the Onli fren tat is able tO make me smile again.. jus like the incident during sec3 camp..



he always scOld me fOr being gullible and stubbOrn.. warning me Of this and tat.. i argued.. i find him naggy.. but deep dOwn, i actualli agree wit him at times.. i nOe myself.. i nOe he's cOncern.. but im stubbOrn.. i wOnt listen unless i gOt the taste Of it.. this is my weakness.. i thOt Of changing.. but i preferred tO fOllow my heart.. i used tO listen tO frens.. i regretted.. i made a terrible chOice and ended a relatiOnship which meant sO much tO me..


teachers and peOple in sku always misunderstand as an item.. why? cant a bOi and a gal be buddies? it's healthy can? anyway, i've talked alOt.. tats enuff.. gOtta attend tutorials in the mOrning..

last day

went studying tOday! hahas.. it has been sOme time ever since i study wit nik, elye and jy.. we talked but studied tOo.. it's a rainy day tOdae.. but the weather did nOt affect me.. it's a peaceful day.. everything seem sO peaceful.. many peOple playing sOccer at the cOurt..


the Onli thing tat i wasnt happy was, da wei was at the blOck beside beside the pavilion when we went ther! he stayed ther fOr sO long! kept lOoking tOwards Our way! i hate his laughter! i hate his eyes! i hate everything Of him! i've seen enuff Of him in class.. i feel sO disgusted when he's mentiOned.. psychOtic guy.. lucki he went Off aft sOme time..



i wasnt tat affected afterall.. i'll cOntrOl myself..



anyway, gOtta thank gilbert fOr helping me sOlve the prOblem Of my blOg.. i waited fOr nic tO dO this fOr 2 mOnths.. but ther is anOther prOblem thOugh.. lOlx.. anyway, THANKS~

he's sick-

im affected.. i dOnt nOe wad tO dO.. i guess i wOnt be slping well tOnite.. my 'beautiful' nite is ruined..

gOOOOODDDDddd day

IT'S A GOOD DAY TODAY DESPITE THE RAIN!



started my day well like usual, luffin and jOking wit nik.. had my english paper.. paper 1 was alrite.. wrOte smth stupid.. 'im a gOod swimmer in the sku team' lOlx.. im jus the OppOsite.. paper 2 was tOugh.. there was this french wOrd.. suppOsed tO say wad the wOrd means.. i went tO say tat its french.. lOlx.. stupid ans.. ObviOusly it was in french! but, im nOt affected..



aft sku, i was damn pissed wit jy.. he went Off b4 his the bOoks were given Out.. i called him, wanted tO pass it tO him, instead, he gave me excuses.. gOt smth On? i saw him Outside sku.. i saw him gOing kai's hse! i noe tat he jus wanted me tO bring his bOok hm.. i have my Own thick histOry bOoks tO carry tOo! Of cOs, we quarrelled and i jus left his bOok on the class shelf.. luckily this time i wasnt as sOft hearted~ anyway, it didnt realli affect me..



went nik's hse, then back tO sku fOr my brO's parents' meeting sessiOn, then eileen's hse and finalli tO cOurt! busy day.. BUT I ENJOYED! watched 'Full hOuse', by Rain.. he's sO sweet and cUte in the shOw.. nOw i nOe y qiaO yi and eileen like it.. hahax.. it has been sO long since i last went cOurt tO play bball.. i realli enjOyed tO the extreme.. felt very relaxed and happy..



im happy tOday-

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went tOwn wit nik, nic, jy and my brO tOdae.. finally persuaded him tO gO sO tat he cud chOose his birthday present.. everyOne seem sO sian..



watched superstar jus nOw.. Kelly is realli better than wei lian.. ObviOusli lO.. but wei lian wOn.. wth can.. i wOnder if mOst peOple vOte fOr him Out Of sympathy and fOr his cOurage.. btw, JJ rOcks man.. his perfOrmance was exellent! he is a talented man.. he can dO the .. erms.. i dOnt nOe wads tat called.. prOducing music wit his mOuth.. realli gOod~



im having my english prelims tmL! it's On prOposal writing! we've Onli did it Once.. i wOnder if i can dO it.. gOtta study le.. lOlx.. alL the best fOr me! i can!

bad dream-

my day isnt starting well.. awakened by a bad dream.. can i jus call it a nightmare? at first, it seemed sO real.. i thOt tat's gOnna start my day.. but in the end, i gOt sO hurt by wad was said tO me in the dream.. i dOnt wanna struggle wit these dreams anymOre.. free me.. i dOnt wan dreams anymOre..

im very tOuched.. realli realli very tOuched..


alex and gf seem to to breakin Off.. he's very sad Of cOurse.. shOwed me his wOrk On neOpets and his blOg.. realli tOuching.. his wOrds.. the mOst tOuching One was the neOpets.. i almOst cried.. realli very tOuching.. this is the Onli wOrd which i can use tO describe wad he had dOne.. is alex a true man? a human? dOes such a guy realli exist? Or is this a fairytale? jus hOpe fOr the best fOr this cOuple~