bangkOk

wOo.. have nOt been blOgging fOr almOst a mOnth due tO the O's. bUt sad tO say, i did not study as hard as the prelims and im quite sure i have not dOne well. sOrry tO my parents, teachers, frens and MYSELF.




anyway, i've decided, if i cant get intO a cOurse tat i like, i'll rather re- take my O's.





fOr nOw, im gOing tO ENJOY, PLAY, EAT, SLEEP until its time fOr WORK.

30.10.05

30.1o.05



i had a bad day ytd 3o.10.05. suppOsed tO meet up wit jy and study aft tuitiOn, but i had nO mOod fOr it. i tried eating hOney stars which made nO difference tOo. we were sO bO liaO, slacking at vOid decks and walking ard. but Stella made us luff. sOrry, i shdnt put it this way, but it realli made us luff. she walked past and we exchanged a few wOrds. as she was leaving, i wished her 'all the best' and she fell...... jy started luffing very lOuding and i cudnt cOntrOl myself tOo. sOrry.




im felt sO terrible and dOwn last night, i tried tO hOld back my tears but i failed. everything seems sO unreal. i wanna have my Own wOrld and live in my wOnderland fOr gOod. can time be reversed? i rather gO back tO my sec 1 days.

AHhhhhh

ytd i had a very free sunday staying at hOme, nO tuitiOn. i was all ready tO get Out Of the hse when adrian smsed and said tat tuitiOn is cancelled! Oh man! suppOsed tO be gOing Out tO study wit jy and nik. in the end cancelled.



went tO sku fOr Our math tutOrial which last 4 and a half hrs!! evening stil have math tuitiOn! but in between, nik, nic and i went tO the paviliOn and slack again. yea, and tOday i was suan until like hell. esp by NIC. lucki nik was busy dOing her math Or she'll cOncentrate mOre On me.




tOday i had a very sufficient nap as sOon as i reached hOme. suppOsed tO be a shOrt One and i ended up slping fOr 3hrs! almOst fOrgOt abt the tuitiOn man. lucki i wOke up in time tO prepare my stuffs. it has been lOng since have a sufficient slp. even weekends i waking earli as cOmpared tO the past. but i didnt wake up tO study! i realli wOnder i wake up s earli fOr wad..

nik and nic are currently at my hse nOw. nik is irOning my sku U, nic being bUnny's 'father'. lOlx. he's damn funny lO. damn crazy. kept tOking and scOlding Bunny as if he's cOmmunicating wit his sOn. lOlx. damn funny.



i wOnder wad will happen tO my shirt. nik's still irOning!

sc pract day

heys man. my practical dun nOe can pass Or nOt. i feel tat cOmpared tO the prelims, this O'level practical i can dO. but, One Of my ans fOr chem wrOng. 1 mark. hahas. hOpe tat is the Onli 1 mark lOst. pOssible? hahas. jus dreaming la.



yea. tmr nOt gOing sku!!!! yea man!!!! gOing adrain's wOrkshOp instead. jus 3 hrs. hahas. aft tat nik and nic will cOme tO my hse tO see bunny and study. nic will be buying hOugang's chicken rice fOr us!



but, actualli, sad tO say, tOdae is a very bad day, im filled wit guilt. bunny has skin disease fOr 2 tO 3 mOnths le. it is cOmmon fOr rabbits tO get it yet i didnt even realise it until nic and nik came tO my hse tOdae and find tat bunny lOoks weird. ade has been saying tat my bunny's fur is lOsing fur. i thOt it is nOrmal. yea, it is. but tOo much?



wad kinda Owner am i? dUn even dare tO carry my Own bunny? scared Of my Own bunny? the bunny has been living wit me fOr 3 mOnths and yet i've nOt OvercOme my fear. all these while, nik, nic and i has been thinking tat the bunny is very fat. this isnt true. it has been slimming dOwn. sO skinny nOw. it jus lOoks puffy. b



went tO the vet, she said tat since im scared Of my Own pet, might as well get sOmeOne else tO lOok aft it. i agree wit her. but i feel so cOnfused. if i were tO dO tat, i'll feel bad. i like rabbits, tats y my frens bOught it fOr me as bdae gift. yet i cant take gOod care Of it. and my parents are cOmplaining abt the bunny. the vet says tat bunny is underweight! can imagine? all the while we thOt it is sO fat. but today, we can see tat it is realli very skinny. it has tO take 4 jabs tO recOver fully. but it is tOo skinny, the drug will be tOo strOng which may cause death. bunny was given a trial One instead. applied sOme medicatiOn On the ears and gOtta Observe if there is any side effects.




bOught high energy fOod recOmmended by the vet fOr it tO grOw fat quickly. hOpe bunny will be fine. pray hard. if it dies, i'll disappOint my frens and feel with guilt. mb im nOt suitable tO be bunny's Owner permanently? but i'll disppOint my frens.




this entry is lOng. but i jus wanna say wads in my mind nOw.

baby JR

i have smth pleasant tO share! the pic Of a cute baby! i tOok his pic at ICA building On mOn. many babies were ther. cute Ones! nik, nic and i accOmpanied my brO tO make his i/c. tat baby kept smiling very happily man. *nO teeth* hahax. very cute. but the baby's father lOoks like a guy in Our sku. *the Older versiOn* lOls.




babies jus rOck my wOrld! sOme times i wOnder when i'll have my 1st baby. *definitely nOt nOw* hahas. sOme peOple may jus think that im simply crazy Over babies. my brO especially. but i dun think sO. wads wrOng wit liking babies? hOw many peOple Out ther wants tO have their Own child?!




btw, tmr im having my O'level Sc. Practical. sianx. i failed badly during Prelims man. jus had my math tuitiOn at hOme and i was sO sleepy. i gOtta attend tO anOther one at Peace Centre later. im really tired. but as the O'levels get nearer, i dun feel like studying!

yeaHhhh-

STUPID ME MAN~



i've finished my entry le. but i didnt publish! and it's gOne! gOtta dO it alL Over again! but i dun think i wanna re- type wad i've said jus nOw. Or sOme ppl will think sOmething has happened tO me and thOt tat im refering and reprimanding sOmeOne.



btw, jus wanna share my happiness and excitement tO whO ever reads this entry.


this cOming tue, 18.10.05! im gOing swimming! nik's gOing tO teach me. i've learnt dun noe hOw many times le. went fOr 2 diff. swimming cOurses and haven learnt it frOm my frens and my cOusin ceci since pri. sku days. hahax. but i still cant swim. but this dOesnt stOp me frOm lOving the water. i get excited when i gO tO the beach Or tO any pOOl. recentli when i cOme tO think Of gOing swimming sOon, i get very happy and excited. hahas.


i've asked peiyi and liling tO jOin us le! hahas. hOpe their respOnse wOnt disappOint me. hahas.



im happy. i realli am.

AHhhhhh

aHHhhhh... wth man~ having tuitiOn at Peace Centre at 7.30 later! i wanted tO pOstOne tO sat evening again. but nik say jus get dOne wit it and i think i agree. hahas. anyway she asO dOesnt nOe whether tO pOstpOne Or nOt, sO yea, we're gOing tOday. SIANzzzz. meeting her at 6.30. gOing Out sOon! gOtta change le!



ya, the stupid sku pOrtal. wanna dOwnlOad phy nOtes bUt i cant even lOg in man. wth.




sickENing day. wednesdays are sickENing.

10.10.05

My brO's Birthday!



hey, nO tuitiOn tOday! pOstpOned tO sat le. this aftn went hOugang tO get my hp wit nik and nic. went tO packet pOrridge and tibits tO nic's hse tO watch 'the maid'. lOlx. we've nOt watched it b4! but it's nOt nice at all man. nOt scary and it was sO cOnfusing.




suppOsed tO have GG test tOday. Our class is sO united tOday. tOld ms chee that we're all nOt prepared fOr the test. hahas. yeah, and she believed. almOst all the GG lessOns are always BORING! i always lOok ard. mOst Of them always have tat very sleepy and sian lOok On their face. hahas. and i lOve tO ask them this' very sian hOr?' lOlx. the ans i recieve are always the same. 'Ya'. hahas. am i lame? y am i blOgging this? hahas. my ans is, I feel like it! i have nth much tO blOg abt!



O ya. recently, there are 2 mOlesters in class. they ar mOlester Lim and mOlester Tan. bOth perverts. kept tOuching me 'seductively'. hahas. i'll have my revenge. i will. but nOt by tOuching Of cOs, i feel disgusted. lOls



i wanna stOp here. i really have nth tO blOg. hOpe tml will be a very gOod day!

regentville!

8 Oct 2005

im blOgging fOr ytd! suppOsed tO gO natiOnal lib. tO study wit nik, elye and nic de. hahax. ended up watching IntO the Blue wit jy. Onli afew ppl in the threatre.. lUcki we didnt watch any hOrrOr mOvie.. the shOw was nice.. handsOme and pretty leads. hahax.



went Over tO the lib. tO jOin the Others tO study. when i reach ther, all Of them dun feel like studying le. hahas. alL Of us went windOw shOpping. ya. and the stupid and sickening vOmit feeling came back tO me. twice in 3 days le. went tO the tOilet afew times. hahas. it even made me visit the tOilet in Peace Centre which i had nvr wanted tO dO sO. *eerie* i went alOne. hahas. brave? lOls.



i jus did sOmeee study fOr tml's GG test! the tOpic On DevelOpment is sO hard tO understand! sO much tO study! worst, later still gOtta gO tuitiOn. tmL stil gOt sku!!!! aft sku stil gOt tuitiOn! wth! hOpe tml will be a gOod day. :>



when will the O's end man.
7/11 seems sO near. 22/11 seems sO far.

i wished him Happy Birthday

*nNn*



this mOrning, nik and i did smth reali stupid and childish. lOlx. On the way tO sku, we tOk tO each Other as if we had lOst Our vOice. she started it. but. hahas i suggested fOoling NIC tat we had lOst Our vOices cOs of the crackers. hahas. in the end, i suggested tO fOol the Others tOo. i manage tO fOol ain and prabat. hahas. i think elye didnt believe me. hahas. in the end, i cudnt cOntrOl myself and cOnfessed. i dun wanna play liaO. hahax.



rmb ytd mdm lOh tOked tO me regarding the 3 mOnths jc thing. she asked me nOt tO 'hehe haha' anymOre. lOlx. but i thOt tO myself.. wudnt tat be a different Michelle? im sOrry tO say tat i dun think i wanna change as lOng as i dun Over- play.



tOday, nik splashed water On me again. lOls. i stOod beside the dOor fOr in case. but as i was tOking, she suddenli came tO me splashing water. lOlx. i screamed and ran back tO class. mr tan (nOt the DM) was in the classrOom beside the tOilet and he scOlded nik and faey. lOls. Mr tan, im the culprit. hahax. sOrry guys.



im realli VERY HAPPY tOday!



that mOment was unexpected and memOrable. tO be able tO carry a tOrch fOr u is enOugh.

sian 1/2

wth! tOday isnt a gOod day fOr me man..... it rained this mOrning. i walked in the rain again. but it was jus drizzling! nOw, im feeling unwell again. nOt gOing fOr tOnite's tutiOn. because Of me, nik's nOt gOing tOo. gOtta pOstpOne tO sat evening le..


btw, my hp is spOilt! sickening man! these 2 weeks, it had been drOpping whenever im in sku. wth! tOday, i drOpped it abt 2 Or 3 times lO. and when i was tOking On the fOne wit mum, it suddenli went blank. this few days tOo. suddenli shut Off. nOw, it's realli spOilt. damn sickening~



ya. hahas. btw, im gOing cOmplain 4 sickOs. they are elye, faey, nik and ain! lOls. always ka jiaO me. esp tOday, kept splashing water On me! kept making me scream! lucki it was 3 plus le. nO Other classes ard Or i'll be damn pai seh. nik wants me blOg this dOwn! hahax.

i miss u like crazy

faey has been absent frm sku fOr 2 days! nO One tO gO crazy and play with me. i felt quite bored in sku man. she has fOod pOisOning! hahax. tOked On fOne wit her during Our break. hahas. at least gOt sOme interactiOn la. hahax. kinda miss her smiles and vOice man. hahas. ya! and her hand! lOlx.



i did a stupid thing tOday. bOarded 70. i was the Onli passenger bOarding frm tat stOp. hOlding my purse, and walked thru the ez- link 'machine' withOut realizing tat i've nOt even tapped! the indian driver called me and i was wOndering whO is he calling. lucki i turned and lOoked at him. he was refering tO me! damn xia sway lO. i almOst luffed at myself man. when i was alighting, i suddenli gave a pissed lOok. i dun nOe y. i was thinking Of smth and i lOok intO the mirrOr, the driver was staring at me! wth! did he misunderstand me of the ez-link incident?



i like *him*.

30.9.05

went tO the pOlyclinic ytd. stayed ther fOr mOre than 2 hrs! stupid man. made me wait sO lOng. mOrever, i tOok the wrOng bus ther. shd have waited fOr 165 instead. i thOt 25 can bring me ther tOo.


met an auntie ther. she helped me by telling me wad tO dO. i was quite lOst ytd. ive nOt realli been ther. mOreOver, i went ther alOne. my family dOc had give the wrOng infO abt my prOb man. lOls. wad a blurr dOctOr.



anyway, i have tO wait fOr their call when my appOintment wit the hOspital is fixed. the nurse tOld me tat the hOpital is busy. this made me think Of NHS. lOls. S.S



anyway, currently i'll jus dO my part as a student and study hard fOr my O's and nOt think abt the results. since i can chOose, i'll rather be happy! recently, i've fOund Out tat, 'SeasOns in the Sun' has my name in the lyrics! i lOve tat sOng. bUt, hey hey, i dUn like it jus becOs it invOlves my name. hahax. i find tat sOng sweet.

im scared. im wOrried.

i went tO see a dOctOr jus nOw. i've caught a flu. i guess it is becOs i went tO walk in the rain a few days agO. the vOmiting feeling came back tO me when i was in the clinic. finally, i tOked tO the dOctOr abt it. he suggested me tO visit the hOspital fOr a check up aft checking On me. he dUn feel anything wrOng.



a 'pipe' will have tO gO thru my thrOat tO my stOmach. i cant face this. he didnt fOrce me tO gO. but in case anything is wrOng wit me, i decided tO gO thru it. im given a letter and tml i'll have tO gO tO the pOlyclinic tO get anOther letter tO gO tO the hOspital.



frankly speaking, im very scared and very wOrried. this prOb has stayed wit me fOr almOst 4 yrs. nOw then i decide tO find Out wads the prOb. i had alsO fOrgOttened tO tell the dOc tat i had a sudden pain in the heart tOdae. i had experienced this b4. but i didnt tell anyOne. i finalli tOld my mum jus nOw.



i wan tO be healthy. i hOpe i'll get the results as sOon as pOssible. i hOpe everything will be fine.

sick

the graduating classes are fOllowing a blOck time table currentli. up till nOw, i feel tat its still alrite. Oh ya! ade asked me tO dO up my Own time table! i fOrgOt abt it!


nik and i planned tO study frm mOn tO thurs aft sku. but i think i cant! On mOn, nic and i cudnt study at all. Onli nik did sOme wOrk. the weather was sO hOt. was is the weather tat caused it? i dun nOe. ytd, nik and i went tO the multi-purpOse rm tO study. i cudnt study tOo. my mind dun seem tO be functiOning. i was sO damn tired. i thOt i cud get a nap when i reached hm. but i cudnt even slp!


tOday, i finally caught a nap. but at the WRONG TIME! i went tO use the gas stOve tO bOil water. aft mOre than 1 hr later, i went intO the kitchen. the kettle had already dried up! lucki ther was nO explOsiOn nOr any accident, Or i'll be in hOt sOup man. i've learnt my lessOn!



i called my mum and tOld her abt it. she didnt blame me althOugh im in the wrOng, but i gave her pOor attitude. i dun nOe why, but im in a bad mOod tOdae. im nOt feeling well.



my tue night tuitiOn has changed! either On wed Or thur. but ther is nO tuitiOn tOdae. mb tml night? hahas, this is gOod man! i can watch 'Stairway tO Heaven' On tue night withOut missing any part Of it! btw, its a kOrean drama. VERY NICE. catch On mOn and tue, at 10p.m! Oh ya. ch U.



im very sOrry.

24.9.05

im blogging fOr ytd.


went Out wit peiyi. lOlx. nik was sO surprised. lOls. i went Out wit pei yi alOne! hahax. i dun mix wit her grp. we're classmates. and we dun tOk much in class! lOlx. but we've fOund Out tat we've sOme cOmmon interests. lOlx.

we were bOth late and actualli bOarded the same train. lOlx. we watched the brOthers Grimm. it's a nice shOw! wOrth the $! i was feeling unwell again ytd. cud have gOt hm earli fOr a rest. but i fOrgOt tO help my mum exchange $. she needs it tOdae. sO went alL the way frm my hse here tO kOvan. lOlx. i left Onli 5cents! i had tO gO tO the atm in Order tO get $ fOr my dinner and cab fare. lOlx.


pei yi and i have planned. aft Os, we'll gO Out wit xiangyun, my laO pO. hahax. 3 Of us has a main cOmmOn interest! sHhh. i shall keep it as a secret!

sick

i think im nOt feeling well. started feeling giddy aft recess. until nOw! i thOt having a nap will help. tOok twO naps at gm hse and it made nO difference man. i even tOld nik tO gO Out tO study tml when she asked. think i need a break tml. gO Out!



gOt sOme Of my prelim results tOday. lucky nik and i nvr skip sku tOday. lOls. almOst did. i was very happy fOr my humanities. i did well. but fOr chem, i failed again! im having tuitiOn! but stil fail! acc, failed tOo. as fOr math, gOt back p2. 50/80, but im nOt very happy wit it. im very sad today. disappOinted tOo.

rainy day-

RAINY DAY SUX!



it rainned aft sku. i hate rainny days. i gOt sO mOody and walked in the rain. i didnt like walking in the rain.



had my practicals tOdae.. 99.9% fail. im sure. i tOok abt 1 hr tO dO my chem experiments! i didnt nOe wad tO write fOr the ObservatiOns and cOnclusiOns.. sOluble? insOluble? i dun noe! i was sO cOnfused! i think my ans were almOst all the same. i didnt have enuff time tO dO my phy experiment. the last 2 qns of chem i tOtalli dun nOe a thing and left One Of it blank tO rush my phy. i dun nOe if i did the phy One cOrrectli. i left 11 marks qns blank! fOr graph, i used free hand and it sucked. hOw can a graph has thick line?



i used tO sit ther and lOok Or day dream when it cOmes tO experiments, leaving it fOr the Others tO dO. tOdae, i cant dO. :(

yeah~

yeah man!~ tml will be the last prelim paper! sci. practical! but.. we're Onli gOnna be dismissed at 1.30! gOtta wait fOr thOse peOple Of the last shift man~ tml is the last day, yet the latest prelimary exam day~ sians.


btw, gOtta gO fOr gm hse fOr dinner tml! cant fOrget abt it, Or i'll upset gm again.. i've nOt visited her fOr mOre than 2 mOnths! i used tO visit her Once a wk. im guilty Of it. luckily i went ther last fri. she tOld me she was prepared nOt tO ans any of my calls if i didnt visit her cOs i've gOt nO sku. i almOst cried when i hear tat. i wOnder if she was jus jOking. but im affected by it.

stressed.

hadnt blOg fOr 10 days! its sO lOng..


for the past 10 days, i've been stressed.. it'd been sO lOng since i last felt sO stressed.. especialli On tue nite. studied the wrong histOry chp. b4 leaving fOr tutiOn. we had spOtted the same chp, but in the end all of them changed their mind fOr anOther chp instead. On the way tO tuitOn, nik and i decided tO skip and pOstpOned the tuitiOn tO study. that nite, i went tO play swing. but the next mOrning, we were shOcked.. the chp tat we studied wasnt tested! lucky One of the qn was linked tO s.s. we managed tO do.



tOdae, i need nOt gO sku. Onli thOse who are re-taking their mt have tO gO fOr mt paper. but i have tO finish my cme proj! jy didnt dO anything tO it at all during the past 2 wks. im dOing it alOne. i cant find any useful infOrmatiOn!



O's are cOming sOon. time passes real fast. im lOoking fOrward tO 22nOv.. my last paper. i'll wOrk hard. real hard.

junxiOng-

im very happy tat JUNXIONG IS BACK! fOr qiaO yun! he didnt die.. he wasnt drOwned.. but he misunderstOod qiaO yun being married! tat baby is HIS! Omg.. anyway, im lOokin fOrward tO friday nite.. last episOde.. JunxiOng and qiaO yun will be getting married! HAPPY HAPPY ENDING!



catch (SUI JIA MU JI BU SHENG DAN ) at 2100, friday, on CH8!!!!

met nik, nic and jy fOr breakfast.. we were 1/2 late fOr mdm lOh's lessOn! the class was like taking a test.. nO One was tOking until we came in.. lOlx.. nOise pOllutiOn starts.. alL the tables were seperated except jy and i.. in the end, elye jOins us! i nOe it wasnt right tO be tOking thrOughOut the lessOn.. but mdm wasnt teaching, until the last part Of the lessOn.. anyway, i did my cOrrectiOns while tOking tOo.. anyway, nO excuses.. im at fault.. we were asO late fOr gg tutOrial.. even brOught bubble tea in fOr gg lessOn.. we didnt expect ms chee tO mind.. anyway.. i think bOth the teachers were unhappy wit us tOdae..



aft sku, elye and i cancelled Our math tuitiOn.. jus becOs we dOnt feel like having it! we went tO her hse tO watch shutter.. damn scary.. especialli wit that kinda ambience.. the previOus time we went ther tO watch eye10.. wit the same ambience.. anyway, we studied a bit aft enjOying the shOw..

mOrnings

mOrnings*! i've wOke up tOo earlie! i have 10 stupid mins tO spare.. sO.. im Online! i slept at almOst 4 last nite.. Or shd i say, this mOrning? my entire day ytd jus sucked.. except fOr tat last 3 hrs chatting wit terr? i cudnt slp.. On sO many OccasiOns, i wanted tO call him.. i didnt.. last nite was the 1st time i initiate the call.. we had nOt cOntact fOr sOme mOnths.. it's always like tat.. we're always gOing mia and back aft afew mOnths.. we'll Onli chat Or meet up aft afew mOnths and sharing Our past happenings! i wanted tO tag in his blOg, but it's having errOrs! anyway kOr, thx fOr cheering me up.. i felt realli better.. this time, i'lL listen tO u.. wO de yan jing hui kai da da de kan zhe ge shi jie..

he falls fOr anOther gal-

my mOod isnt goOd tOday.. frm the mOment i wOke up, i wasnt feeling well.. especially with this kinda weather, my mOod gOt wOrst.. but my time spent wit nik aft tutiOn,was great.. gOt very dirty due tO the rain.. jus gOt back frm the strOll.. i cud onli see 3 stars.. disappointed..


gOt a call frm jy and i shOwed him very pOor attitude.. he wasnt pissed at alL.. he made me luff instead.. i warned him i'll hit him tmL.. hOpe tat my mOod will get better aft tOnite.. he smsed me and tOld me in a funny manner tat he's available 24/7.. he's the Onli fren tat never fail tO cheer me up and allOw me tO vent my anger On whenever im feeling dOwn.. despite my attitude tOwards him and alL.. i let Our friendship dOwn Once.. due tO a guy.. we sOmehOw turned intO enemy fOr a yr? i tired hating him fOr wad he did.. i cant.. perhaps we're fated tO be friends fOr life? during tat yr, whenever i cry, he'll stil be there tO make funny faces tO cheer me up again.. he did this since sec1.. nO matter hOw sad i am, he's the Onli fren tat is able tO make me smile again.. jus like the incident during sec3 camp..



he always scOld me fOr being gullible and stubbOrn.. warning me Of this and tat.. i argued.. i find him naggy.. but deep dOwn, i actualli agree wit him at times.. i nOe myself.. i nOe he's cOncern.. but im stubbOrn.. i wOnt listen unless i gOt the taste Of it.. this is my weakness.. i thOt Of changing.. but i preferred tO fOllow my heart.. i used tO listen tO frens.. i regretted.. i made a terrible chOice and ended a relatiOnship which meant sO much tO me..


teachers and peOple in sku always misunderstand as an item.. why? cant a bOi and a gal be buddies? it's healthy can? anyway, i've talked alOt.. tats enuff.. gOtta attend tutorials in the mOrning..

last day

went studying tOday! hahas.. it has been sOme time ever since i study wit nik, elye and jy.. we talked but studied tOo.. it's a rainy day tOdae.. but the weather did nOt affect me.. it's a peaceful day.. everything seem sO peaceful.. many peOple playing sOccer at the cOurt..


the Onli thing tat i wasnt happy was, da wei was at the blOck beside beside the pavilion when we went ther! he stayed ther fOr sO long! kept lOoking tOwards Our way! i hate his laughter! i hate his eyes! i hate everything Of him! i've seen enuff Of him in class.. i feel sO disgusted when he's mentiOned.. psychOtic guy.. lucki he went Off aft sOme time..



i wasnt tat affected afterall.. i'll cOntrOl myself..



anyway, gOtta thank gilbert fOr helping me sOlve the prOblem Of my blOg.. i waited fOr nic tO dO this fOr 2 mOnths.. but ther is anOther prOblem thOugh.. lOlx.. anyway, THANKS~

he's sick-

im affected.. i dOnt nOe wad tO dO.. i guess i wOnt be slping well tOnite.. my 'beautiful' nite is ruined..

gOOOOODDDDddd day

IT'S A GOOD DAY TODAY DESPITE THE RAIN!



started my day well like usual, luffin and jOking wit nik.. had my english paper.. paper 1 was alrite.. wrOte smth stupid.. 'im a gOod swimmer in the sku team' lOlx.. im jus the OppOsite.. paper 2 was tOugh.. there was this french wOrd.. suppOsed tO say wad the wOrd means.. i went tO say tat its french.. lOlx.. stupid ans.. ObviOusly it was in french! but, im nOt affected..



aft sku, i was damn pissed wit jy.. he went Off b4 his the bOoks were given Out.. i called him, wanted tO pass it tO him, instead, he gave me excuses.. gOt smth On? i saw him Outside sku.. i saw him gOing kai's hse! i noe tat he jus wanted me tO bring his bOok hm.. i have my Own thick histOry bOoks tO carry tOo! Of cOs, we quarrelled and i jus left his bOok on the class shelf.. luckily this time i wasnt as sOft hearted~ anyway, it didnt realli affect me..



went nik's hse, then back tO sku fOr my brO's parents' meeting sessiOn, then eileen's hse and finalli tO cOurt! busy day.. BUT I ENJOYED! watched 'Full hOuse', by Rain.. he's sO sweet and cUte in the shOw.. nOw i nOe y qiaO yi and eileen like it.. hahax.. it has been sO long since i last went cOurt tO play bball.. i realli enjOyed tO the extreme.. felt very relaxed and happy..



im happy tOday-

..

went tOwn wit nik, nic, jy and my brO tOdae.. finally persuaded him tO gO sO tat he cud chOose his birthday present.. everyOne seem sO sian..



watched superstar jus nOw.. Kelly is realli better than wei lian.. ObviOusli lO.. but wei lian wOn.. wth can.. i wOnder if mOst peOple vOte fOr him Out Of sympathy and fOr his cOurage.. btw, JJ rOcks man.. his perfOrmance was exellent! he is a talented man.. he can dO the .. erms.. i dOnt nOe wads tat called.. prOducing music wit his mOuth.. realli gOod~



im having my english prelims tmL! it's On prOposal writing! we've Onli did it Once.. i wOnder if i can dO it.. gOtta study le.. lOlx.. alL the best fOr me! i can!

bad dream-

my day isnt starting well.. awakened by a bad dream.. can i jus call it a nightmare? at first, it seemed sO real.. i thOt tat's gOnna start my day.. but in the end, i gOt sO hurt by wad was said tO me in the dream.. i dOnt wanna struggle wit these dreams anymOre.. free me.. i dOnt wan dreams anymOre..

im very tOuched.. realli realli very tOuched..


alex and gf seem to to breakin Off.. he's very sad Of cOurse.. shOwed me his wOrk On neOpets and his blOg.. realli tOuching.. his wOrds.. the mOst tOuching One was the neOpets.. i almOst cried.. realli very tOuching.. this is the Onli wOrd which i can use tO describe wad he had dOne.. is alex a true man? a human? dOes such a guy realli exist? Or is this a fairytale? jus hOpe fOr the best fOr this cOuple~

peaceful day

Teachers' Day? Our sku isnt celebrating it! 1st time man.. had the gift presentatiOn and back tO lessOns.. the 1 periOd of assembly was damn lame lO.. uninteresting.. almOst the whOle sku left at 1pm.. Our class was sO stupid tO think tat mdm lOh wud be cOming fOr lessOn.. she didnt!


had a 'fight' wit jy tOday.. aft the assembly, the sec 4 and 5 cOrridOr was like a market.. sO many peOple walking abOut.. ms sim came tO class w/O teaching.. lOls.. we had Our 'fight' in class and alOng the cOrridOrs.. i guessed the last time we did tat was during lOwer sec times le.. i went crazy, nth else came tO my mind.. elye and nik even tried tO stOp me! lOlx.. i jus kept chasing up and dOwn.. but i felt very relaxed aft running.. nik gOt excited tOo! lOlx..



finally went tO the swing tOdae.. i cudnt even play fOr lOng.. having giddy spells again and almOst fall Off frOm it.. lucky it didnt happen Or i'll be damn embarrassed.. nik and wx came Over tO bring bunny dOwn tO the garden.. bunny adapts tO new envirOnments quite fast.. very nOtti.. and this is the 1st time i see the childcare children cOming Out.. they were all attracted tO bunny! they're realli lOvable..

late!!!!!!!!!

im late fOr sku tOday.. together wit nik.. nOt becOs we wOke up late Or caught in a traffic jam.. jus becOs we walked slOw tOday! lOlx.. lucky i didnt gO and buy sweet, Or we'll get even later! jus late by a minute.. sickening man.. the gate clOsed right in frOnt Of us.. wth can? 10 yrs Of educatiOn.. 1st time late fOr sku..



stayed back aft sku tOday fOr math test againnnn! i fOrgot abt tOday's tuitiOn! stil went tO have a slack wit the gals at the playgrd.. lOlx.. lucky nik reminded me..



there are stars tOnite.. sOme tiny Ones.. currently, thOse are enuff.. but when will ther be a night when the whOle sky is filled wit bright twinkling stars? i'll be waiting fOr tat day tO cOme..

today is a bad day for love

lOve? tOday isnt a gOod day fOr tat.. im busy On msn.. nik and wx are having prObs.. gOtta tOk tO bOth.. alex and gf are facing prOb tOo.. terr is stil very upset Over the breaking up wit sq.. he chOse tO give up.. but he had decieved himself.. is ther any turning back fOr him? is sQ willing give him anOther chance? he had all along been demanding and all.. but he lOves her alOt.. she is his 1st prior.. i've always regard him as my kOr.. i dOnt wan him tO be like tat.. he used tO be sO cheerful.. in frOnt of his frens, he is always putting up a smile.. a smile which isnt real.. keep yOurself away frOm hOme? drink? smOke? u think u can fOrget everything? arent u making life wOrst?



im pissed tOday.. pissed by jy.. by wad he said.. be cOnsiderate.. think Of hOw i wOuld feel befOre saying thOse stuffs pls.. im suppOsed tO be angry wit him.. but when he called me, i fOrgot abt it again.. hOw am i suppOsed tO shOw him tat i seriOusly dOnt like thOse cOmments? he nOes it.. but he's stil dOing tat.. i dOnt understand wad kinda jOy he wOuld enjOy by saying tat..



tOday is just a bad day-

dOne my cme project

dOne my cme prOject the mOment i reached hOme frOm tutiOn! im satisfied wit myself.. i've dOne my part fOr the prOject, the rest is up tO jy already..



im nOt feeling gOod again.. i had a dream.. why appear in my dream and make me feel sO real? since it's jus a dream, let it appear as fake as pOssible then.. dOnt spOil my day.. im really affected..



i really gOtta pull up my sOcks.. i nOe im nOt trying hard enuff.. jus 2 mOre mOnths i'll be free frOm sku and stuffs.. i must push myself!

Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you
From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cryI'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie
As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid)
To let your feelings show (feelings show)
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because)
I deserve a try (try) honey
Just once (once)
Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked)
You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge)
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry)

nik, nic, elye, jy and gilbert

fOr the first, nO One rush the teacher tO dismiss On time.. lOls.. wOngO accidentally dragged the lessOn fOr 1/2hr! nOne Of us was aware Of it.. lOls.. the clOck wasnt wOrking man.. lOls.. lucky philip checked the time, Or wOngO wiLl cOntinue anOther set Of essay! wOngO, u nvr fail tO make Our lessOns interesting!




went tpy wit nik, nic, jy, elye and gilbert.. lOls.. finally have the chance tO see hOw he lOoks like.. he lOoks sO mature, like a NS man.. lOls.. suppOsed tO pei elye tO expO tO see bOoks.. ended up gOing tO bugis! lOls.. lucky jy didnt gO, Or he and nic wOuld be argueing nOn-stOp Or end up quarrelling?




i tried tO take a nap when i reached hm, but my mind was jus filled wit him.. i cOuldnt slp prOperly.. brainwash me pls..

suckie me..

26.08.05
this day kinda sUcks.. ended sku late tOdae and went tO wx hse tO slack.. slack again?! i cant play the swing again.. i need the swing.. hOney stars are nOt wOrking On me anymOre.. i cant smile.. i cant.. what has gOt intO me? these few days, i jus feel like sleeping.. hOw lOng can i sleep tOnight? i gOtta wake up earli fOr tutOrial tml..


last night, i had a dream.. i thOt it was real.. it seemed sO real.. but when i wOke up and checked, it was jus a dream.. anOther dream.. since it's nOt real, please dOnt even appear in my dreams.. it'll jus spOil my day..

meaningless day!

its's a meaningless day tOday! sO busy and i did nOt have any fun.. nik and i were under wx's blk waiting fOr him and i see peOple playing the swing.. i was tempted lO.. but didnt play.. tOday is jus a BORING DAY lO.. had tutOrial aft sku tOday.. tutOrial again.. tml still gOtta stay fOr math test! every lessOn we've gOing tO sit fOr math tests? dOnt stress us can!?



dad asks me tO gO On a trip tO m'sia wit my cOusin her children fOr a day.. i wanna gO, bUt i cant! i'm having tuitiOn On tat day!



sickening sku.. sicking life.. sickening O'levels.. sickOs

disappOinted wit junyi-

disappOinting friend-



im damn tired this mOrning.. even during the natiOnal anthem, i felt like slping~ planned tO gO hm straight aft tutOrial tO take a nap, but ended up slacking wit nik? mdm lOh gave us the JAE fOrm tOdae.. i used my mOck exam scOres tO calculate my L1R4.. 21.. there are cOurses that i want tO take, but i cant! it sOmehOw affected my day man..



met junyi and kai while returning hm.. and ended up having my dinner wit them.. and this is the 1st time junyi smOked in frOnt Of me.. i knOw he's smOking le.. but tO see my fren smOking in frOnt Of me makes me feel very unpleasant.. he knOws that i dOnt like ppl tO smOke, yet he's still dOing that.. kai tOo.. im utterly disappOinted.. luckily On my way hm, i saw the beautiful sky.. it was realli nice and it made me feel better..




i shd gO tO study NOW!

buzziie day-

it's anOther tuesday.. jus gOt hm nOt lOng agO! hOw busy i am tOdae~ aft sku gOt tutOrial.. reached hm nOt lOng gOtta gO fOr tutiOn.. im exhausted.. i dOnt wan this kind Of life.. studying the whOle day is tiring.. i have nOt gOne tO the swing fOr 2 days.. perhaps i'll Onli gO ther aft this mOnth? hOpe sO..



sku is gOing to end late tml.. tutOrial againnnnn~ thurs and fri tOo.. since last week, we have tO stay On fri tO dO math tests.. the sku is crazy.. absOlutely crazy.. suddenly give us such tight schedules.. i rather have night classes in sku lO..



O'levels, please cOme quickly and end as sOon as pOssible!

everything i do, i do it for you

everything i dO, i dO it fOr u...
-bryan adams


Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

tight day-

many things happened tOday.. carina and xinyi had a cat fight in 4e2 tOdae.. it was shOrt.. sO many peOple went fOr the 'shOw'.. i jus felt like walking Off when the fight started.. this is my first time witnessing a cat fight.. it jus seems sO frightening tO see peOple fighting.. as we walked Out Of the sku, june came and it was like june and carina vs the twins lO.. carina was fierce, but june was wOrst.. cud hear her shOuting vulgarities sO lOudly when we were walking back.. i wOnder wad are the security guards Outside the Office fOr.. it was sO ObviOus that there was a big illegal gathering in frOnt Of the sku lO..



the swings were swinging by itself tOdae! one which seemed natural, the Other One... erms.. :x but we didnt feel anything eerie thOugh.. jus weird! nO One was arOund, nOt a single sOul..



tOdae, nik and wx spent their day tgther while i went shOpping wit aLvina! hahax.. i missed thOse days when the 4 Of us kept gOing bugis.. thOse days were sO girly.. shOpping, taking neOprints and dOlling Ourselves up.. j.a.m.s-



i embarassed myself On the way hm tOdae! dOzed Off in the bus, knOcked OntO the glass and almOst leanned On an uncle! luckily i wOke up myself~ i must keep myself awake when im On the bus alOne! i've been warned since yOung..



btw, the minimart dOwnstairs has clOsed dOwn.. when i went dOwnstairs jus nOw, the feeling is sO different.. nOt much peOple as befOre and was quiet.. i felt sO different.. sOmehOw scary.. as if i've cOme hm late in the night?

rainy day againnnnn

its rainning again! again! went fOr tuitiOn tOdae.. a student joins us.. the first impressiOn she gave me was.. she's fake... anyway, this tuitiOn will last fOr abt 2 mOnths plus Onli.. everything will be fine again..



went cOmpass alOne in the evening tO get sOme stuffs.. mum isnt feeling well tO jOIn me.. but that alLOwed me tO be mOre independent! in the past, i wilL never dO tat..



tOdae is jus anOther day.. anOther rainny day.. im lOoking fOrward tO swing tml!

i love u-

tOwnnnn!

went fOr wOngO's tutOrial tOday.. nik, nic and i met and went tO buy breakfast tO eat in class.. as he tOld us tat we're allOwed tO eat, we thOt many Of them'll buy.. ended up Onli the 3 Of us.. lOlx.. imagine nic eating nasi lemak during the lessOn! lOlx.. while nik and i had Our bean curd.. lOlx.. lessOn tOdae is realli fun.. played a game again.. quite stupid lO.. tats Our wOngO!



aft lessOn, i went tO the swing again.. nic went instead Of nik.. hahas.. had my fun thOugh..



nik and i went tOwn tOdae! lOlx.. suppOsed tO gO Out wit aL and frens, but i didnt.. anyway, it didnt start Off well.. lOlx.. it jus rainned heavily suddenly while we were crOssing the rOad.. we jus share a bOoklet tO cOver Our heads and walked alL the way tO taka! everyOne were lOoking at us lO.. damn embarassing~ alL drenched~



beautiful illusiOn-

exhausted!!!

the mOment nik and i came tO the assembly grOund this mOrning, Phua pOh pOh questiOned us already.. regarding the absence frOm her class.. we lied.. *sinned* but she sOmehOw didnt believe us at alL lO.. aft assembly, mdm lOh was the next One tO questiOn us.. lOlx.. nik didnt wanna explain further.. i jus said tat i kept feelin giddy and went hOme earlier! hahax.. i nOe i shdnt dO tat.. but these few days, im realli feeling tat way.. but nOt as seriOus as hOw it was last year.. she was sOmehOw wOrried.. im guilty~ IM SORRY.


friday.. this day im suppOsed tO be dismissed earli! instead, sku ended at 3....... straight aft recess! but we didnt even have time fOr that break.. had tO dO up math cOrrectiOns.. and it was alL the way math till 3! cOrrectiOns tO be dOne, math test tO take and fOllowed by a math tutOrial~ i planned tO dO sOme study aft sku.. but we're jus stressed and tired aft the math test man~ lucky it isnt raining tOday but damn hOt.. went tO the swing wit nik and learnt hOw tO swing higher.. aft tat we jus slacked thrOughout the whOle nOon!.. anyway, i enjOyed nik's accOmpany tOdae! it was fun!



but tml is a sat! a weekend! but.... we stil gOtta gO fOr extra lessOn! gOtta wake up earli~ this week im seeing nik everyday lO.. tml and sun fOr tuitiOn tOo.. Omg.. and im realli tired.. im feeling the stress.. but sOmehOw, we can stil slack.. jus pray hard that we'll nOt get tOo stress nOr tOo slack tOo~



my friendship wit junyi is always On and Off fOr the past few years.. until nOw.. i had been treating him cOldly.. mOstly due tO hOw i feel tat he's changing.. but these 2 days, the friendship seem tO be imprOving.. i noe he'll be ther tO suppOrt me.. but sOmehOw.. i cant trust him tOtally.. mb it's asO due tO the grp Of peOple he's miggling wit? i dOnt nOe.. i wOnder if Our frienship is gOnna last..

my rainny day

my rainny day-

i dun feel gOod tOdae.. nik and i skipped acc tutOrial.. it rainned and i thOt i wOnt be able tO play the swing.. but still, we went.. fOr tat mOment, i felt realli high.. aft tat, nik left wit wx while i went april's hse and fell aslp ther.. the day is sO sian..



my day is rainny.. all the mixed feelings.. 18/8/05 isnt a gOod day..



hOw many peOple can i actually trust?

beautiful illusiOns-

wOo.. i had my fun at cOurt tOdae.. cOmbined science tutOrials were cancelled! but.. stil gOtta wait fOr nik tO finish her O'level Oral.. think the Oral was quite alright fOr her.. able tO speak.. aft tat, we were suppOsed tO meet geOk nicOle at cOurt, but we gOt tempted by the swings near wx hse! erms.. i dOnt nOe hOw tO swing high and nik wants tO cOmpete~ lOlx.. luckily gOt nic tO push me.. the feeling Of swinging sO high is really GREAT.. very stress- free and it made my mOod became sO high.. i think we shd gO ther mOre Often!



the game was gOod~ but cOurt seemed really quiet.. it was dOminated by gals tOday! even kai xiang tat grp didnt cOme tO cOurt tOdae.. but smth terrible jus had tO happen.. geOk and her fren, anOther gal whOm we dOnt nOe, flipped nik's skirt On twO OccasiOns! nik was damn angry.. aft the game, she jus sat fOr awhile and went hm.. april and i fOllowed.. ended up taking a strOll.. nik scolded vulgarities man.. i was shOcked.. she was very angry and wx went tO cOurt and scOlded geOk.. i spOke tO him On the phOne.. sO fierce lO.. i didnt even nOe hOw tO handle him..



aft the thing, april and i went back tO cOurt tO play again.. i jus feel sO energetic tOday! tOk On phone wit nik fOr mOre than 2hrs~ tOk and tOk.. bOth Of us jus feel better aft tOking tO each Other.. perhaps its becOs we share the same kinda thinking.. anyway, i jus feel like saying this Out.. i miss him..



beautiful illusiOn-

saddie day

jus reached hm nOt lOng? im sO damn tired nOw.. left hm at 6 plus in the mOrning and came back at 5 plus tO bathe and have a quick meal and rushed tO meet nik fOr tuitiOn~ i dislike quick meals man.. i cant enjOy.. bOth Of us thOt Of bringing an umbrella, but in the end, nOne Of us brOught and it rained! lOlx.. lucki Our destinatiOn was jus drizzling..



had my O'levels English Oral tOdae.. everything was fine! befOre gOing in, i was sO tensed that i had tO keep singing tO calm myself dOwn.. One Of the invigilatOr was a caucasian.. luckily my grOup wasnt invigilated by her! i am quite sure that my Oral was well- taken.. able tO read and speak fluently..



btw, i gOt tO knOw smth which made my day rainy.. but i dOnt regret hearing it.. at least there are ppl ther fOr me.. esp nik.. thanks alOt..



i met the ice-cream uncle tOdae, selling ice- cream Outside the sku.. we spOke fOr quite a lOng time while waiting fOr april.. i've learnt smth frm him.. it's hard tO survive in the sOciety.. he tried many jObs and learnt many skills despite his *prOb* i realli admire him.. his will pOwer..



nik and i had a talk wit adrain befOre the tuitiOn.. many students made it fOr their O'levels even frOm a F9 result.. tO an A Or B.. we can tOo.. but aft seeing thOse results Of his ex-students, we felt stressed.. wad if we cant?



anyway, im stressed.. i gOtta play tml.. hOpe tat nik's Oral wilL gO smOothly tml..
may gOd bless her-

sleepless nite

it's gOnna be a sleepless night tOnight.. up til nOw, i stil dOnt feel like sleeping yet.. jus feel like blOgging.. even if i gO tO bed, i'll be listening tO pOwer 98 again.. fOr the past few nights, it kept me accOmpany.. Yes93.3 is sO bOring withOut Dj Ling Zhi's vOice..



i think i better fOrce myself tO slp.. Or i'll be sleeping in class tml.. Lights Offff, time tO be On bed nOw..

starriie me

i seriOusly cant put myself tO slp.. i need tO take a strOll.. i need it nOw.. hOw i wish this mOnth quickly pass and i'll gO fOr a strOll fOr the first night.. my starriie night.. it has been a lOng time ever since i went up ther tO lOok at the stars wit my brO.. last year! he wOnt gO wit me anymOre.. he's nOt even interested~



i dOnt feel gOod.. i need my hOney stars again.. had it ytd, but it had nO effect On me.. it used tO help.. hOwever, even if i realli wanna eat them nOw, ther is nO mOre left.. i need a break.. i need tO scream.. i missed my sec1 and sec3 days.. i miss kai ling, terrence, jarvis, mei hui, jOycelin, mrs yeo and her stares, her scOldings.. i miss my craziest mOments when i dOnt even need tO give a damn tO anyOne.. i miss my havOc times.. i miss thOse mOrning trainings.. i miss thOse days when i gO ard shOpping malls tO see babies.. im still nOt prepared tO face this 'dOg- eat- dOg' wOrld..



yes, sOmehOw junyi and nik are right abt me.. and i guess elye is asO getting tO understand mOre abt me..



starriiebaby-

i lOve him-

suppOsed to study wit nik aft sku.. but we saw this little bOy whO is sO cute.. jus under the blOck in frOnt Of the sku.. i was tempted and went Over and spent quite sOme time wit him and his granny.. lOlx.. he didnt allOw me tO carry him at first.. but i managed tO win his trust Over! shd i call it a trust? hahas.. anyway Ck came and surprisingly, he tOked abt the past.. abt tM.. at least he rmbs.. aft sO lOng, we have talked again.. aft all, we're stilL frens..


the vOmiting feeling is here again.. tOdae.. and i seriOusly hate it.. had my math tUitiOn tOdae.. adeline bOught a bOokmark fOr me which lOoks really cute.. bUt.. i've stOpped read bOoks since lOng agO.... anyway, i like it..


i'll be having my English O'level Oral tml.. kinda stressed Over the whOle O'levels.. i dO nOt noe if i can make it tO the pOly.. had physic tuitiOn ytd, math tOdae and chem tml.. aft mt Oral! tml gOtta take Physic mOck exam again and a math test tO prepare us fOr the One On friday.. is the sku crazy? i realli wOnder..



i wan my carefree life-

tUitiOn... stressssss

i have nO time tO surf the net tOnite! nOt even msn Or listening tO sOngs.. i had my 1st science tuitiOn wit nik tOdae.. it's physic tOdae.. bUt guess wad.. i brOught chem instead~ luckily nO bOoks were needed Or i'll be sO embarassed.. the place is sO damn deserted.. at first, we (nik, her mum and i) cudn't even find the tuitiOn centre.. alL the dOors were clOsed and we came across 2 peOple Onli! cant imagine hOw nik and i are gOing tO gO there On tue nite and gO hm frm ther..


the lessOn was alrite, but the students ther seem tO be like private candidates and gave us the wild feeling.. we were kinda shOck when they came in..



i think i'm starting tO feel the stress already.. my schedule is tightening~ my english O'level Oral is On tue man.. jus hOpe tat the Oral gOes smoOthly fOr me..

bObby's birthday-

went tOwn wit nik and wx tOday.. it was quite great but asO sian.. but at the end Of the shOpping, i bOught sOme stuffs.. the feeling was quite great.. then nik and i went tO the cOurt tO meet junhaO and alex.. cOurt was sO quiet tOdae.. Onli afew came dOwn.. nik went hm early..


and it's bObby's birthday tOdae.. kim li shOwed him a presentatiOn specially made fOr him.. it was wOnderful.. tOuching indeed.. think he had enjOyed himself tOday..


btw, i've gOt another tuitiOn again.. but wit nik.. fOr bOth phy and chem! tue and sun! tue wil end at nite! gOtta gO all the way tO p.s! mOn math tuitiOn.. tue asO have.. sun tOo.. anyway.. i jus hOpe tat during the O'levels, i can pass my science and hOpefulli get a B4? hOpe tat the O'levels wun stress me..

rainy day-

its anOther rainy day again.. it was sO cOld tat i cudnt cOncentrate in class and dOzed Off fOr awhile.. jus find tat histOry lessOn is getting mOre and mOre bOring.. gOt my O'level chi. result tOdae.. gOt a B3.. shd cOnsider it as a miracle.. i thOt i'll get a C5 or 6.. i didnt pay attentiOn in chi class fOr 2 yrs.. frm an A in sec One tO a C during the mid-yr examinatiOn this yr.. it shOcked me.. my O'level Oral wasnt tat gOod.. but i wOnder hOw can i get a distinctiOn.. everything seemed tO be a lie.. it dOesnt seem real at alL.. i dUn feel the real happiness frm it..
jus tOld my dad abt it.. he had nO reactiOn at alL.. wad is this suppOsed tO mean?



tOdae is realli a tiring day.. brOught nik hm aft sku while i have a shOwer befOre visiting jOvyn.. phy test was canceled.. i wanted tO learn hOw to carry bUnny.. but im still scared Of it.. nik and i wanted tO bath bUnny.. hahas.. bUt we dO nOt have the knOwledge Of dOing it at alL.. we didnt risk..



we ended up onli went chOmp chOmp to like sOmehow celebrated bObby's birthday.. they were tOo late tO visit jOvyn.. hOpe he recOvers sOon!

bad day-

went tOwn tOdae.. hahax.. studied abit befOre gOing Out.. at tOwn, nik and wx kept giving att tO each Other.. the ambience was sO suckie lO.. he and i was stiL Ok untiL we were On Our way tO gO back tO cOurt.. nik and i felt sO terrible.. but lucki we had each Other~ at cOurt, it was asO quite sian.. Overall, the day isnt gOod..

natiOnal day-

went jun haO's hse fOr bbq tOdae.. we were the earliest batch tO be ther.. hahas.. but during the day, it was sO sian.. Other than nik and i, alL were bOix.. alL playing their Own games and were very nOisy man.. lOlx.. we were like sO bOred lO..



during the bbq, junhaO tOld us abt the cake which his cOusin had baked.. fOr bObby! we celebrated his b'dae tOdae in advance.. hahax.. and i did half Of wad i prOmised.. hahas.. at least One Of it~ aniwae, it was quite fun tOdae..



i've enjOyed myself-

its a rainy day tOdae! it started drizzling in the mOrning liaO.. the celebratiOn in sku extended tilL 10 plus lO.. alL becOs Of the rain.. this yrs indian dance stiLl nOt sO bad.. hahax.. lUcki nO chi. dance.. it'll bE sO sick.. bUt this yr's break dance is nicer cOmpared tO the previOus Ones.. bUt tOo lOng le la.. watch until we sian..



nik and i went tO bObby's hse tO slack.. hahas.. fell aslp.. nik cudnt slp lO.. she was sO sian and i kept having running nOse! seriOusli hate tat man.. kept using tissue.. damn sickening~


aniwae.. things are gOing fine.. hOpe it cOntinues tO be fine..

i went shOpping tOdae! hahas.. wit aL and jO.. it has realli been mOnths since we last went Out tgther.. it was realli great.. we bOught ser a necklace.. and K One came tO j8 tOdae.. Onli one Of them lOoks shuai.. :x hahas.. we saw a baby tOo.. veri FAT.. realli fat.. 3 mOnths Old and is areadi 7 kg! hahas.. bOtak sOmemOre.. i lOve fat bOtaks.. sO funni.. and we asked wad the baby eats! hahas.. the mOther tOld us tat we mustnt criticise ppl's baby.. Or our child wud turn Out like tat.... i shd start tO watch my mOuth le! hahas..



he's feelin sian and stressed.. hOpe tml will be a great day fOr him!..



missing him-

well, well, well.. i met him and sOme frens this mOrning.. suppOsed tO have breakfast at 8.30.. but ended up having it an hr later.. lOls.. waited fOr this and tat.. jus like wad happened last sat.. hahas.. aft breakfast, we went tO watch sOccer! it was sO exciting and cOol lO.. it has been sO lOng since i realli watched a gOod sOccer game lO..



we went tO the jam rOom.. haO ming didnt cOme.. it was nOt as fUnnie as the previOus time.. bUt stilL quite fun as Eugene came and played the drums.. nice~ aft tat, we went tO jun haO hse.. i was suppOsed tO dO my math hw ther.. bUt.. hahas.. ended up playing! sO fun.. eileen, adele wOnka and jOvina went wit us tOo! hahas.. adele wOnka~ her hair style lOoks abit like willy wOnka! lOlx



went cOurt.. jOvina and i played wit 2 little bOys.. almOst lOst shamefulli man.. lUcki adele came tO help.. lOlx.. tat game wasnt tat fun thOugh.. cOurt seems sO quiet tOdae..



spent sOme time wit him.. i think tOdae is quite alrite.. but i think im gOnna miss him tml le.. hahas.. bOth of us has smth On.. hOpe things gO smOothli ba..

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??It isn't love, it's like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??It isn't love, it's lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off??It isn't love, it's luck.
Do you want them because you know they're there??It isn't love, it's loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants??It isn't love, it's loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??It isn't love, it's low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them??It isn't love, it's pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??It isn't love, its infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??It isn't love, it's friendship.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of??It isn't love, it's a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??It isn't love, it's charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad??Then it's love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong??Then it's love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply ithurts??Then it's love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there??Then it's love.
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are??Then it's love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??Then it's love.
Love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why? The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others as well.

erms.. i gOt this frm the net..

Shan BeNnn-

hahas.. i didnt blOg ytd! went dOwnstairs fOr a strOll last nite.. lOls.. saw smth which wasnt meant fOr me tOo see.. lOls.. at the park! hahas.. sOoo... erms.. can imagine? lOls.. sO awkward! my day didnt end well last nite.. i was tOld of certain things.. but im glad tat at least he let me nOe rather than keeping it tO himself.. i wud feel wOrst..



btw, peng leng has the theme sOng of 'gOlden faith'! my favourite shOw! O~ Ding Shan Ben.. the nOblest man ever.. he is always prepared to sacrifice himself fOr the sake Of anyOne.. he's a gOod sOn, a gOod brO, a gOod fren and a gOod bOss.. but.. he failed tO be a gOod lOver.. he cud give up his wealth, pOwer, lOve, pride.. jus everything.. lucky the endin was gOod! he was stil able tO be wit his gal.. the shOw jus tOuched me.. and i've gOt the sOng! the scenes Of the shOw jus keep appearing in my mind nOw.. hahas..




and i went cOurt tOdae.. it was fun! hahas.. anyway.. hOpe tat everything jus gO smOothli..




im happy-

wOo.. Our mOck exams has finalli ended tOdae! hahahas.. very happy.. and.. smth happened in class tOdae.. quite funni.. erms.. but i shall keep it tO myself! hahas..



aft sku went J8 then back tO metal ring.. had a great day tOdae! wad can i say? F.U.N! hahas..

had my math and english mOck exams tOdae.. hahasx.. nO cOmments On them..


went tO study wit nik, elye and frens.. we spOtted the wrOng qns lO.. sO sickening.. we cOnferenced almOst and hr, still nOt confirmed.. i jus read thru abit... tmL mOrning then study acc le..



hOpe bOth papers can pass man.. nO cOnfidence..



hahahas.. met him tOdae.. everything is gOing On fine!

had my science mOck exam tOday.. bOth papers tgther.. cant dO.. esp chemistry! hais.. even the mcq was hard lO.. lucki my humanities was kinda alrite lO.. can pass, but im not sure if i can dO well.. fOr the past few days, i wasnt realli stressed Over this mOck exam.. but when i was in sku, i was sO stressed lO..



had my tuitiOn wit adeline tOdae.. she lOoks sweet.. my previOus tuitiOn teacher lOoks sweet tOo.. hahas.. her explainations were clear.. i cud understand her easily.. hahas.. she's friendli!



i met aft sku tOdae.. everything went smOothli.. but he cudnt dO his test.. he's realli affected by it.. hOpe he'll dO well tmL.. hOpe bOth of us dO well fOr the tests tmL..

i lOve him-

s.i.a.n

spent my whOle day studyin at hOme tOdae.. sO sian lO.. everyOne's nOt hOme.. the hse was sO quiet.. lucki im used tO it.. hahas..



i did all my chem revisiOn and the nOtes fOr physic.. nO mOod fOr humans.. tml gOtta study durin tat 1 hr break.. its 4 papers in a day lO.. crazy sKu.. i wOnder if its babu's idea..



fOr abt 1 tO 2 weeks, i see him everyday.. meet him everyday, even weekends.. tOdae didnt! im sO gaO wei.. missed him alOt.. he kept appearin On my mind when i was studyin.. i jus tOld myself nOt tO think.. i can think all i wan aft studying.. hahas.. and i made it! i was very happy when i finished studyin.. lucki we can meet up tml. hahas.. i'll be lOokin fOrward tO tat! hahas..



tml mOck exam le.. hOpe i can make it.. he's having his exam toO.. hOpe he can make it tOo.. hahas.. we shall bOth make it!



cause even the impOssible is easy when we gOt each Other-

tOdae, i was suppOsed tO meet him and the Others fOr breakfast.. i was late.. hahas.. but aft breakfast, it rained and we went junhaO hse tO study.. and the bOys played.. everything at junhaO hse went smOothli and fun..



but when we were leavin his hse, bObby had a bad stOmachache.. it was realli a bad One.. he expressiOn shOws it all.. he cudnt even walk straight lO.. we went 147 tO have dinner again.. lucki he ate.. i thOt he wOnt eat becOs of the pain..



aniwae.. everything was great and enjOyable except tat ache which spOilt his evening? jus hOpe tat he recOvers sOon..

memOrable day-

this mOrning, i was sO tOuched and surprised.. he appeared Out of a sudden wit some bread which he bOught.. i realli didnt nOe hOw tO react.. realli surprising.. he's the first guy tat does this tO me.. last nite when he tOld me he was gOing tO m'sia and doesnt nOe when he'll be back, i was sad and realli missed him alOt.. but luckily, it was jus a lie.. a white lie? but it started my day very well..



we are dismissed late again.. this time by mdm lOh.. she gave Out the Prelim time table.. it realli stressed me alOt.. almOst cried when i went thru it.. time is passin sO fast lO.. tOday is the 100th day tO O'levels le.. tmL will be a '2' digits day.. '99'.. tOld elye tO ask her tuitiOn teacher if she wants student.. my math realli slacked alOt ever since i stOpped my tuitiOn..



aft sku, went tO study wit him, wx, nik and dOm.. spent abt an hr... studying the wrOng thing.. very sickening.. felt like givin up and slack.. but in the end i carried On.. lucki! hahas.. aft tat went tO metal ring again.. i played sOccer wit 2 little bOis! it was fun.. then played bball against ah bOon tat grp.. realli fun! i scored a few gOals! hahas.. this week didnt play at alL lO.. i realli enjOyed myself.. but aft tat, i kept perspiring and stink lO.. lucki he lent me his shirt tO change..



they celebrated Shereen's birthday tOdae! hahax.. this aftn cOurt like nOt much ppl.. at nite, alOt liaO.. very nice feelin..



jus nOw he sent me hm again.. everything went smOothli and gOt better.. jus hOpe tat everything cOntinues tO get better and better? actualli, i think we are realli progressin very fast.. frm the day we started cOmmunicating till nOw.. realli fast..



btw, i realli enjOyed my day.. esp wit his presence..

28/7/05-

tOdae, we had accOunts tutOrial again.. damn sicking lO.. every wk is phua's lessOn.. wOngO didnt even had a chance tO have it wit us.. and again, we were late by 1/2 hr.. lOls.. bUt she delayed the time lO.. by rite 3.30 shd dismiss us.. dragged until 4.. the bOis were sO bek cek.. but i think tOdae is the 1st time im dOing accOunts sO fast witOut the file.. hahas.. lucki gOt nik's help tOo..



met him aft sku.. hahas.. everything jus seem tO get better.. i wanted tO play bball.. but i had the vOmitin feelin cOming back again tOdae.. damn sicking.. and he hurt his fOot.. blisters On bOth fOot.. he was suppOsed tO attend his guitar lessOn de.. becOs of this, he skipped it again.. i nOe his fOot hurts.. i dun feel gOod either.. it hurts me tO see tat esp when i saw the blOod..




tOdae desmOnd and cOmpany came tO metal ring tO play.. but the feeling wasnt ther anymOre.. we used tO be sO happy when we were at n4.. jOkes and aLl.. but tOdae.. its sO diff frm the past..




but anyway, i did enjOy my day, esp wit his accOmpany-

the stupid vOmitin feelin came back tOdae.. im realli affected by this suckie feelin.. wanted to realli relax and enjOy de.. but this feelin made my mOod went dOwn.. realli very gaO wei..



this mOrnin he purposeli wOke up earli in the mOrning tO 'pei' me and wanted to give me mOral suppOrt.. i was tOuched and surprised.. it realli started my day well.. my replies to him was shOrt and he thOt i wasnt in the mOod or jus nOt interested.. but im nOt.. realli nOt.. i jus wanted him to slp mOre.. tats all.. mb becos i didnt express it?




i read his blOg.. i nOe he's dOwn and sad.. i cud see tat when i wasnt happy tOday, he was affected tOo.. i dun feel gOod tOo.. but i didnt nOe wad tO dO either.. i jus dO not nOe y im like bringin mOre sOrrows tO him.. i nOe he's stressed.. and im adding mOre tO him? i dun nOe.. tats hOw i feel..




but i realli dO lOve him-

had a great day tOdae.. but was sO sleepy and tired.. the rain made me sO cOld.. i dun like the rain..


met him aft sku.. everything was alrite and went smOothli.. went tO study but i didnt study much.. felt like playin then.. when i realli went tO play, i felt sian.. dun nOe wanna play Or nOt.. the rain? lOls.. perhaps..


he sent me hm aft the game.. i felt tat things are improvin? gettin tO nOe mOre abt each Other le.. but was realli affected wit sOme wOrds during the msging.. but in the end, we managed tO tOk it Out and of cOs, it allOwed us tO nOe mOre abt hOw we are feelin..


i jus feel tat i've brOught him mOre sOrrOws instead.. anyway.. jus hOpe tat everything cOntinue tO gO smOothli..

erms.. tOdae.. he and wx came tO meet nik and i.. waited quite lOng Outside.. but we didnt realli tOk ther.. until we started gOing tO the vOid deck tO study.. he fOund his pen! its a gOod thing? hahas..


the Others came Over later and i started saying tat junhaO and i are havin an affair.. it was alL meant tO be a jOke.. and it was quite alrite lO.. finalli played bball again.. had fun until my leg almOst start tO cramp.. hahas..



he lOoked serious suddenli and i was shOcked.. i thOt he's angry wit the 'jOke' earlier On.. he sent me back but i cud sense tat he isnt realli happy.. he went thru my past testiz and was affected by wad he read.. thOse happenings had became histOry.. wad matters tO me nOw is the present and future..



we tOk sOme things Out jus now.. i didnt nOe hOw i managed tO tell him hOw i felt abt my past.. his past was asO a barrier tO him.. i think my past sOmehOw affected me tOo.. but i wanna OvercOme it and i will OvercOme.. perhaps time is a factOr tOo.. seriousli, i find tat things are improving at quite a fast rate le.. jus hOpe tat things carry On well..


i know what i want-

h.a.p.p.y-

went tO study wit crazy bOb today.. he helped me went thru 19 chps! i didnt nOe i can dO it.. hahas.. find it realli amazing.. if i were tO study myself, this can nvr happen..


went tO april's hse aft tat.. rOman had its hair cut! it is realli hOrny.. hahas.. saw hOw it pestered alex.. sO terrible.. april's mum was ther.. very frenli.. all Of us went tO the ntuc wit her..


in the evenin went tO metal ring.. the bOys played sOccer and junyi happened tO be at the cOurt when alex and i were sittin tgther.. he thOt we're an item! Omg! i nOe he must be thinkin tat i have a bf ther.. i felt realli unhappy aft the talk wit him.. i nOe he'll suan me and ask me things in sku.. and i'll hate it..



but Overall, i've enjOyed my day!

23.7.05

tOday earli in the mOrnin wOke up le.. went tO meet crazy bOb fOr breakfast and tO study.. hahas.. nOw i nOe he has anOther nick name.. lOlx..



i did my chem and studied abit.. i fOund Out tat i dun nOe lOts of things! sO jia lat! aniwae, jus discussed wit nik.. this week we gOnna stOp bballin and study fOr the mOck exams.. hahas.. hOpe we can..



btw.. i think i had enjOyed my day again.. but not many ppl came tO metal ring tOdae.. it rained tOo.. in the aftn, he suddenli walked Off and slpt at the tOp of the playgrd.. rain le ask him tO wake up.. but he ignOred me.... hahas.. i was unhappy wit it.. i dun like it.. but in the end Ok le lO.. tOk and luffed..



i enjOyed-

adele's birthday-

wOoo.. had my english Oral tOdae.. i felt gOod.. aft tat went to nik's hse and she went tO mine.. hahax.. went tO J8 wit bObby and april tO buy xiaO qi's birthday gift!


she cried! sO pOorthing! but she's stiLl cute.. hahas.. we celebrated at the serangoOn cC.. when everyOne was sO happy, a mad wOman came in and scOlded us.. wanted us tO leave the rOom and the CC within 5 mins! realli spOiled Our mOod lO.. but then in the end we went back tO metal rIng.. stiLl nOt bad la.. elye managed tO come and meet us!


came hM quite late jus nOw.. wit tat crazy bOb.. tOday sO viOlent.. kept hittin me and takin pics.. hahax.. but i hOpe tOday i didnt upset him.. hahax..



aniwae, i enjOyed my day!

21.7.05-

wOo.. great day tOday! celebrated my birthday wit sO many ppl.. classmates.. sku-mates and frens at metal ring.. realli surprised and tOuched! lucki this yr can ren,, nvr cry like last yr.. lOls


they bOught a bUnny and i named it bUnny! its small and cute.. i'll feed it until it gets fat de! hahas..


but i made sOmeone unhappy.. hahas.. sOrry! anyway, thanks fOr the piggy and.. i've enjOyed myself!

rainin!-

it's a rainy day again.. frm the start Of the mOrning.. hahas.. but stil met nik in the mOrning..l lucki by tat time the rain stOpped le..


the whOle day in sku was sO sian and tiring lO.. can see tat sOme of Others aso feelin like tat.. durin assembly, ther was a play On racial harmony.. tat actOr frm the ch8 'you fu' came.. he acted as the jialing's father.. hahas.. he's veri fUnni.. made the assembly sO interesting..


aniwae.. tOdae many ppl wanted tO run frm the tutorials aft sku.. hahas.. aLl sO restless.. we were veri late fOr chem tutOrial! hahas.. aLan made mr chan seem sO fed- up.. his face tells it alL.. hahas.. think alan wasnt the Onli culprit.. :x


junyi gOt caught fOr smOkin.. disappOintin.. dun nOe y alL this wiLl happened.. in skU gOt caught twice fOr disciplinary matters le aft sku stil kena.. change pls!

a guy who shed his tear-

had a great day tOdae! it rained.. i thOt the day wun turn Out weLl.. i've fOund my gg tb! sOme1 threw it On tOp of the cupbOard! and i got shOt by dun noe which guai lan guy again.. 3rd time le! i was fOoled by niC! he was fOoled by kah eng and alan, then target me! made my hands stained wit liquid! sO bO liaO..


aft sku, nik and i waited fOr april tO finish her Oral but bObby came tO bring us umbrella..


we went tO see bunnies! and i've finnalli gOt tO tOuch One Of the fat One.. hahas.. and tat crazy bOb.. sO crazy and nOisy.. kept sayin me.. hahas.. first time see the nOisy side Of him.. but alrite la.. hahas..


nik and i went tO april hse aft tat.. elye came aft nik left.. ther was this show 'windstruck'.. sO tOuchin.. v nice.. hahas.. but i nO lOnger have the disc wit me le..


and tat pervertic april tried tO flip my skirt and mOlest me!!! hahas.. anOther crazy gal.. aniwae.. i reali had a great day tOdae!

yeaHhhh-

wad happened to blOgger last nite? cudn't get in man..


btw, it was such a bad day fOr me.. nik and wx brOke up.. bObby and team lOst the bball match tO sOme guys.. i didnt expect it lO.. seein nik so upset realli affected me.. when we went tO the jam rOom, jun hao and hao ming was sO funni but nik didnt luff much.. 2nd time seein her like tat..


but luckily, she regreted breakin and asked fOr a patch.. hahas.. wx agreed!!!! lUCky! hOpe tat this pair of cOuple can realli stay happy wit each Other fOrever!.. this ended my day very well.. hahas..

Zzz

sO many days nvr blOg le.. erms.. fOr the past few days i had my ups and dOwns.. the ups were very 'up'.. lOls.. and the dOwns were very 'dOwn'.. hard to elaborate lo..


but recentli, kept goin to metal ring fOr bball.. very fUn.. and i've gOt a new nick again man... babi......... Oh man....


btw, today im jus bloggin fOr the sake Of bloggin.. nOt in the blOgging mOod..



is it happenin-

bad day-

had my O'level chi. Oral tOdae.. haix.. when i was in class, i had already felt quite nervOus liaO.. I was the last second candidate.. during the 2 hrs wait, i tOk and luffed wit xiang yun and cOmpany.. it did calm me dOwn..


hOwever.. when i was Outside the rOom waitin tO gO in, i felt quite nervOus again.. but when i practice reading the passage, i was quite alrite.. the mOment i gOt in and sit dOwn, my heart was like........ i was sO damn nervous lO.. i knew hOw tO read the passage, but was tOo nervOus man.. either brOke the sentences intO parts Or missed sOme wOrds and read again.. it was sO terrible..


when it came tO the cOnversatiOn, i cOuldnt cOntrOl, kept rubbing the passage.. at 1st, speak much fOr bOth qns, even fOrgot wad was the qn when i tOk halfway thru! lucki i asked the examiner tO repeat.. it was sO embarassing! the examiners kept asking me tO calm dOwn..


when i stepped Out of the rOom, i almOst break dOwn and cry.. i ren'ed'.. until i saw elye and nik at the canteen.. i realli didnt expect the situatiOn tO be sO sucky.. fOr PSLE, i wasnt this bad..


xii huan ni-

haix-

had p.e tOdae.. we played captain's ball and i played as the gOal keeper.. while waitin fOr the ball tO be thrOwn here, the bOys kicked their fOotball here and it hit my mOuth.. my lips hurt and it was realli painful.. but i didnt expect myself to be sO hardy! i rubbed and cOntinued playin! i was able to ignOre the pain! its a gOod thing.. hahax..


hOwever, halfway thru the match, elye and i exchanged rOles.. i was tryin tO thrOw the ball tO khad but it accidentalli hit her face.. she was wearin her specs!!! can imagine? the specs scratched her face.. nearli kena her eyes.. i felt damn scared and guilty lO.. went to the tOilet wit her and the wOund bleed........ she kept sayin tat it was painful.. but she didnt cry at all! realli cant imagine if i were her..


tOdae in class, junyi did spOke a few wOrds tO me.. he gOt my stapler frm my table.. actualli i thOt tat we will return as nOrmal.. but we didnt.. the few cOnversatiOns was like sO sucky.. the last cOnversatiOn almOst made me quarrel wit him again.. haix.. heard frm nik tat he cOmplained tat i've changed, always agreeing wit nic.. but.. y shd i disagree when nic is actualli rite? haix.. anyway.. this yr is Our last yr le.. i realli hOpe tat my friendship wit junyi wOuld nOt end jus like tat.. i dun wan tat tO happen..


i tOok a cab hOme during the evenin.. when i reached a stretch Of rOad at seng kang, the sky was damn beautiful.. this is realli my first time seeing such a nice scene.. i'll nvr fOrget it.. the sky was filled wit pink, purple, shades of blue and greyie white.. sOme clouds were sO unique.. One of it lOoks as if it's reflecting itself.. it's like twO same pieces sticking OntO each Other..at tat mOment, i realli had teh urge to take pictures of the scene.. it was near my hse.. when the cab reached my flat, the sky was filled wit orange tOo.. bOth scenes were filled wit a little interesting clouds.. it was marvelOus.. realli beautiful..


when i gOt hm, i tried taking pix Of it, but the sky was mostli blOcked.. sO wasted..


tml i'm having my chi. O'level oral le.. sO nervous.. jus now i practice reading my chi. text.. sO many words dun nOe!!! realli regretted nOt paying attentiOn in class~ but.. tOo late to say all this le.. jus hOpe tat i can make it tml.. must scOre well..



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