i lOve him-

s.i.a.n

spent my whOle day studyin at hOme tOdae.. sO sian lO.. everyOne's nOt hOme.. the hse was sO quiet.. lucki im used tO it.. hahas..



i did all my chem revisiOn and the nOtes fOr physic.. nO mOod fOr humans.. tml gOtta study durin tat 1 hr break.. its 4 papers in a day lO.. crazy sKu.. i wOnder if its babu's idea..



fOr abt 1 tO 2 weeks, i see him everyday.. meet him everyday, even weekends.. tOdae didnt! im sO gaO wei.. missed him alOt.. he kept appearin On my mind when i was studyin.. i jus tOld myself nOt tO think.. i can think all i wan aft studying.. hahas.. and i made it! i was very happy when i finished studyin.. lucki we can meet up tml. hahas.. i'll be lOokin fOrward tO tat! hahas..



tml mOck exam le.. hOpe i can make it.. he's having his exam toO.. hOpe he can make it tOo.. hahas.. we shall bOth make it!



cause even the impOssible is easy when we gOt each Other-

tOdae, i was suppOsed tO meet him and the Others fOr breakfast.. i was late.. hahas.. but aft breakfast, it rained and we went junhaO hse tO study.. and the bOys played.. everything at junhaO hse went smOothli and fun..



but when we were leavin his hse, bObby had a bad stOmachache.. it was realli a bad One.. he expressiOn shOws it all.. he cudnt even walk straight lO.. we went 147 tO have dinner again.. lucki he ate.. i thOt he wOnt eat becOs of the pain..



aniwae.. everything was great and enjOyable except tat ache which spOilt his evening? jus hOpe tat he recOvers sOon..

memOrable day-

this mOrning, i was sO tOuched and surprised.. he appeared Out of a sudden wit some bread which he bOught.. i realli didnt nOe hOw tO react.. realli surprising.. he's the first guy tat does this tO me.. last nite when he tOld me he was gOing tO m'sia and doesnt nOe when he'll be back, i was sad and realli missed him alOt.. but luckily, it was jus a lie.. a white lie? but it started my day very well..



we are dismissed late again.. this time by mdm lOh.. she gave Out the Prelim time table.. it realli stressed me alOt.. almOst cried when i went thru it.. time is passin sO fast lO.. tOday is the 100th day tO O'levels le.. tmL will be a '2' digits day.. '99'.. tOld elye tO ask her tuitiOn teacher if she wants student.. my math realli slacked alOt ever since i stOpped my tuitiOn..



aft sku, went tO study wit him, wx, nik and dOm.. spent abt an hr... studying the wrOng thing.. very sickening.. felt like givin up and slack.. but in the end i carried On.. lucki! hahas.. aft tat went tO metal ring again.. i played sOccer wit 2 little bOis! it was fun.. then played bball against ah bOon tat grp.. realli fun! i scored a few gOals! hahas.. this week didnt play at alL lO.. i realli enjOyed myself.. but aft tat, i kept perspiring and stink lO.. lucki he lent me his shirt tO change..



they celebrated Shereen's birthday tOdae! hahax.. this aftn cOurt like nOt much ppl.. at nite, alOt liaO.. very nice feelin..



jus nOw he sent me hm again.. everything went smOothli and gOt better.. jus hOpe tat everything cOntinues tO get better and better? actualli, i think we are realli progressin very fast.. frm the day we started cOmmunicating till nOw.. realli fast..



btw, i realli enjOyed my day.. esp wit his presence..

28/7/05-

tOdae, we had accOunts tutOrial again.. damn sicking lO.. every wk is phua's lessOn.. wOngO didnt even had a chance tO have it wit us.. and again, we were late by 1/2 hr.. lOls.. bUt she delayed the time lO.. by rite 3.30 shd dismiss us.. dragged until 4.. the bOis were sO bek cek.. but i think tOdae is the 1st time im dOing accOunts sO fast witOut the file.. hahas.. lucki gOt nik's help tOo..



met him aft sku.. hahas.. everything jus seem tO get better.. i wanted tO play bball.. but i had the vOmitin feelin cOming back again tOdae.. damn sicking.. and he hurt his fOot.. blisters On bOth fOot.. he was suppOsed tO attend his guitar lessOn de.. becOs of this, he skipped it again.. i nOe his fOot hurts.. i dun feel gOod either.. it hurts me tO see tat esp when i saw the blOod..




tOdae desmOnd and cOmpany came tO metal ring tO play.. but the feeling wasnt ther anymOre.. we used tO be sO happy when we were at n4.. jOkes and aLl.. but tOdae.. its sO diff frm the past..




but anyway, i did enjOy my day, esp wit his accOmpany-

the stupid vOmitin feelin came back tOdae.. im realli affected by this suckie feelin.. wanted to realli relax and enjOy de.. but this feelin made my mOod went dOwn.. realli very gaO wei..



this mOrnin he purposeli wOke up earli in the mOrning tO 'pei' me and wanted to give me mOral suppOrt.. i was tOuched and surprised.. it realli started my day well.. my replies to him was shOrt and he thOt i wasnt in the mOod or jus nOt interested.. but im nOt.. realli nOt.. i jus wanted him to slp mOre.. tats all.. mb becos i didnt express it?




i read his blOg.. i nOe he's dOwn and sad.. i cud see tat when i wasnt happy tOday, he was affected tOo.. i dun feel gOod tOo.. but i didnt nOe wad tO dO either.. i jus dO not nOe y im like bringin mOre sOrrows tO him.. i nOe he's stressed.. and im adding mOre tO him? i dun nOe.. tats hOw i feel..




but i realli dO lOve him-

had a great day tOdae.. but was sO sleepy and tired.. the rain made me sO cOld.. i dun like the rain..


met him aft sku.. everything was alrite and went smOothli.. went tO study but i didnt study much.. felt like playin then.. when i realli went tO play, i felt sian.. dun nOe wanna play Or nOt.. the rain? lOls.. perhaps..


he sent me hm aft the game.. i felt tat things are improvin? gettin tO nOe mOre abt each Other le.. but was realli affected wit sOme wOrds during the msging.. but in the end, we managed tO tOk it Out and of cOs, it allOwed us tO nOe mOre abt hOw we are feelin..


i jus feel tat i've brOught him mOre sOrrOws instead.. anyway.. jus hOpe tat everything cOntinue tO gO smOothli..

erms.. tOdae.. he and wx came tO meet nik and i.. waited quite lOng Outside.. but we didnt realli tOk ther.. until we started gOing tO the vOid deck tO study.. he fOund his pen! its a gOod thing? hahas..


the Others came Over later and i started saying tat junhaO and i are havin an affair.. it was alL meant tO be a jOke.. and it was quite alrite lO.. finalli played bball again.. had fun until my leg almOst start tO cramp.. hahas..



he lOoked serious suddenli and i was shOcked.. i thOt he's angry wit the 'jOke' earlier On.. he sent me back but i cud sense tat he isnt realli happy.. he went thru my past testiz and was affected by wad he read.. thOse happenings had became histOry.. wad matters tO me nOw is the present and future..



we tOk sOme things Out jus now.. i didnt nOe hOw i managed tO tell him hOw i felt abt my past.. his past was asO a barrier tO him.. i think my past sOmehOw affected me tOo.. but i wanna OvercOme it and i will OvercOme.. perhaps time is a factOr tOo.. seriousli, i find tat things are improving at quite a fast rate le.. jus hOpe tat things carry On well..


i know what i want-

h.a.p.p.y-

went tO study wit crazy bOb today.. he helped me went thru 19 chps! i didnt nOe i can dO it.. hahas.. find it realli amazing.. if i were tO study myself, this can nvr happen..


went tO april's hse aft tat.. rOman had its hair cut! it is realli hOrny.. hahas.. saw hOw it pestered alex.. sO terrible.. april's mum was ther.. very frenli.. all Of us went tO the ntuc wit her..


in the evenin went tO metal ring.. the bOys played sOccer and junyi happened tO be at the cOurt when alex and i were sittin tgther.. he thOt we're an item! Omg! i nOe he must be thinkin tat i have a bf ther.. i felt realli unhappy aft the talk wit him.. i nOe he'll suan me and ask me things in sku.. and i'll hate it..



but Overall, i've enjOyed my day!

23.7.05

tOday earli in the mOrnin wOke up le.. went tO meet crazy bOb fOr breakfast and tO study.. hahas.. nOw i nOe he has anOther nick name.. lOlx..



i did my chem and studied abit.. i fOund Out tat i dun nOe lOts of things! sO jia lat! aniwae, jus discussed wit nik.. this week we gOnna stOp bballin and study fOr the mOck exams.. hahas.. hOpe we can..



btw.. i think i had enjOyed my day again.. but not many ppl came tO metal ring tOdae.. it rained tOo.. in the aftn, he suddenli walked Off and slpt at the tOp of the playgrd.. rain le ask him tO wake up.. but he ignOred me.... hahas.. i was unhappy wit it.. i dun like it.. but in the end Ok le lO.. tOk and luffed..



i enjOyed-

adele's birthday-

wOoo.. had my english Oral tOdae.. i felt gOod.. aft tat went to nik's hse and she went tO mine.. hahax.. went tO J8 wit bObby and april tO buy xiaO qi's birthday gift!


she cried! sO pOorthing! but she's stiLl cute.. hahas.. we celebrated at the serangoOn cC.. when everyOne was sO happy, a mad wOman came in and scOlded us.. wanted us tO leave the rOom and the CC within 5 mins! realli spOiled Our mOod lO.. but then in the end we went back tO metal rIng.. stiLl nOt bad la.. elye managed tO come and meet us!


came hM quite late jus nOw.. wit tat crazy bOb.. tOday sO viOlent.. kept hittin me and takin pics.. hahax.. but i hOpe tOday i didnt upset him.. hahax..



aniwae, i enjOyed my day!

21.7.05-

wOo.. great day tOday! celebrated my birthday wit sO many ppl.. classmates.. sku-mates and frens at metal ring.. realli surprised and tOuched! lucki this yr can ren,, nvr cry like last yr.. lOls


they bOught a bUnny and i named it bUnny! its small and cute.. i'll feed it until it gets fat de! hahas..


but i made sOmeone unhappy.. hahas.. sOrry! anyway, thanks fOr the piggy and.. i've enjOyed myself!

rainin!-

it's a rainy day again.. frm the start Of the mOrning.. hahas.. but stil met nik in the mOrning..l lucki by tat time the rain stOpped le..


the whOle day in sku was sO sian and tiring lO.. can see tat sOme of Others aso feelin like tat.. durin assembly, ther was a play On racial harmony.. tat actOr frm the ch8 'you fu' came.. he acted as the jialing's father.. hahas.. he's veri fUnni.. made the assembly sO interesting..


aniwae.. tOdae many ppl wanted tO run frm the tutorials aft sku.. hahas.. aLl sO restless.. we were veri late fOr chem tutOrial! hahas.. aLan made mr chan seem sO fed- up.. his face tells it alL.. hahas.. think alan wasnt the Onli culprit.. :x


junyi gOt caught fOr smOkin.. disappOintin.. dun nOe y alL this wiLl happened.. in skU gOt caught twice fOr disciplinary matters le aft sku stil kena.. change pls!

a guy who shed his tear-

had a great day tOdae! it rained.. i thOt the day wun turn Out weLl.. i've fOund my gg tb! sOme1 threw it On tOp of the cupbOard! and i got shOt by dun noe which guai lan guy again.. 3rd time le! i was fOoled by niC! he was fOoled by kah eng and alan, then target me! made my hands stained wit liquid! sO bO liaO..


aft sku, nik and i waited fOr april tO finish her Oral but bObby came tO bring us umbrella..


we went tO see bunnies! and i've finnalli gOt tO tOuch One Of the fat One.. hahas.. and tat crazy bOb.. sO crazy and nOisy.. kept sayin me.. hahas.. first time see the nOisy side Of him.. but alrite la.. hahas..


nik and i went tO april hse aft tat.. elye came aft nik left.. ther was this show 'windstruck'.. sO tOuchin.. v nice.. hahas.. but i nO lOnger have the disc wit me le..


and tat pervertic april tried tO flip my skirt and mOlest me!!! hahas.. anOther crazy gal.. aniwae.. i reali had a great day tOdae!

yeaHhhh-

wad happened to blOgger last nite? cudn't get in man..


btw, it was such a bad day fOr me.. nik and wx brOke up.. bObby and team lOst the bball match tO sOme guys.. i didnt expect it lO.. seein nik so upset realli affected me.. when we went tO the jam rOom, jun hao and hao ming was sO funni but nik didnt luff much.. 2nd time seein her like tat..


but luckily, she regreted breakin and asked fOr a patch.. hahas.. wx agreed!!!! lUCky! hOpe tat this pair of cOuple can realli stay happy wit each Other fOrever!.. this ended my day very well.. hahas..

Zzz

sO many days nvr blOg le.. erms.. fOr the past few days i had my ups and dOwns.. the ups were very 'up'.. lOls.. and the dOwns were very 'dOwn'.. hard to elaborate lo..


but recentli, kept goin to metal ring fOr bball.. very fUn.. and i've gOt a new nick again man... babi......... Oh man....


btw, today im jus bloggin fOr the sake Of bloggin.. nOt in the blOgging mOod..



is it happenin-

bad day-

had my O'level chi. Oral tOdae.. haix.. when i was in class, i had already felt quite nervOus liaO.. I was the last second candidate.. during the 2 hrs wait, i tOk and luffed wit xiang yun and cOmpany.. it did calm me dOwn..


hOwever.. when i was Outside the rOom waitin tO gO in, i felt quite nervOus again.. but when i practice reading the passage, i was quite alrite.. the mOment i gOt in and sit dOwn, my heart was like........ i was sO damn nervous lO.. i knew hOw tO read the passage, but was tOo nervOus man.. either brOke the sentences intO parts Or missed sOme wOrds and read again.. it was sO terrible..


when it came tO the cOnversatiOn, i cOuldnt cOntrOl, kept rubbing the passage.. at 1st, speak much fOr bOth qns, even fOrgot wad was the qn when i tOk halfway thru! lucki i asked the examiner tO repeat.. it was sO embarassing! the examiners kept asking me tO calm dOwn..


when i stepped Out of the rOom, i almOst break dOwn and cry.. i ren'ed'.. until i saw elye and nik at the canteen.. i realli didnt expect the situatiOn tO be sO sucky.. fOr PSLE, i wasnt this bad..


xii huan ni-

haix-

had p.e tOdae.. we played captain's ball and i played as the gOal keeper.. while waitin fOr the ball tO be thrOwn here, the bOys kicked their fOotball here and it hit my mOuth.. my lips hurt and it was realli painful.. but i didnt expect myself to be sO hardy! i rubbed and cOntinued playin! i was able to ignOre the pain! its a gOod thing.. hahax..


hOwever, halfway thru the match, elye and i exchanged rOles.. i was tryin tO thrOw the ball tO khad but it accidentalli hit her face.. she was wearin her specs!!! can imagine? the specs scratched her face.. nearli kena her eyes.. i felt damn scared and guilty lO.. went to the tOilet wit her and the wOund bleed........ she kept sayin tat it was painful.. but she didnt cry at all! realli cant imagine if i were her..


tOdae in class, junyi did spOke a few wOrds tO me.. he gOt my stapler frm my table.. actualli i thOt tat we will return as nOrmal.. but we didnt.. the few cOnversatiOns was like sO sucky.. the last cOnversatiOn almOst made me quarrel wit him again.. haix.. heard frm nik tat he cOmplained tat i've changed, always agreeing wit nic.. but.. y shd i disagree when nic is actualli rite? haix.. anyway.. this yr is Our last yr le.. i realli hOpe tat my friendship wit junyi wOuld nOt end jus like tat.. i dun wan tat tO happen..


i tOok a cab hOme during the evenin.. when i reached a stretch Of rOad at seng kang, the sky was damn beautiful.. this is realli my first time seeing such a nice scene.. i'll nvr fOrget it.. the sky was filled wit pink, purple, shades of blue and greyie white.. sOme clouds were sO unique.. One of it lOoks as if it's reflecting itself.. it's like twO same pieces sticking OntO each Other..at tat mOment, i realli had teh urge to take pictures of the scene.. it was near my hse.. when the cab reached my flat, the sky was filled wit orange tOo.. bOth scenes were filled wit a little interesting clouds.. it was marvelOus.. realli beautiful..


when i gOt hm, i tried taking pix Of it, but the sky was mostli blOcked.. sO wasted..


tml i'm having my chi. O'level oral le.. sO nervous.. jus now i practice reading my chi. text.. sO many words dun nOe!!! realli regretted nOt paying attentiOn in class~ but.. tOo late to say all this le.. jus hOpe tat i can make it tml.. must scOre well..



xii huan nii-

thx-

O ya.. thx Nic fOr helping me wit solving my blOg's prOb ar.. anyway, this is a temporary blOg fOrmat.. anyway, Nic, THANKS sO much!

fUnnnnn!!!

ytd quarrelled wit junyi.. realli unhappy wit him ytd.. tOdae in sku we didnt even tOk at all..


suppOsed tO find Mr Heng tO dO math tOdae, but cancelled.. sO ended up in the art rOom.. rOkia wasnt ther! nik and i helped them dO their art! lOlx.. tat was realli fun man.. the previous time i wanted to try Out le.. lOlx.. tOdae finalli gOt the chance tO dO it! regretted taking hist.. art is realli fun..



nik and i was sO nOisy.. the art students were cOmplainin.. esp ALAN! lOlx.. but.. we realli enjOy.. nik and nic went to get the water spray and sprayed On me man.. lOlx.. kept running abt.. hahax.. when nic tried to spray On nik, he accidentalli sprayed On my laO pO, xiang yun.. lOlx.. 1st time hear her scOld vulgar.. lOlx.. she was so du lan tat she sprayed nic back, rite into his face wit 2 water sprays! lOlx.. almOst all Of us luffed..



abt 3 plus, we went metal ring to play bball wit April and company.. tat was sO fun! but i didnt play fOr lOng la.. hahax.. but realli realli enjoyed the day tOdae!!



xiiiii huan ni-