i lOve him

this is my 3rd entry tOday
suppOsed tO be preparing fOr my PLW paper tml.
i jus dun feel like it la. i better nOt regret

suddenli feel like trashing Out my heartfelt wOrds here

yes.. relating tO him
i dun nOe y i fall fast in lOve
althOugh it is e same fOr this current r/s,
i cant stOp myself frm falling deeper intO it
althOugh i've gOt very bad experiences

thru Out e whOle r/s, i nOe hOw impt he is tO me
but since ytd, i realised hOw much i cant bear tO leave him
if One day we have tO part,
i nOe i cant stOp it frOm happening
but i've fOrgOttened hOw tO let gO
b4 i smsed him tO clarify things ytd
i was wit Fel..
she tOld me tO be prepared if it dOesnt turn Out well
i was sO reluctant tO ask
i was sO afraid tO hear tat e sun will set
tat was hOw i felt
i cant imagine myself w/O him
i've grOwn tO be very attached tO him cOmparing myself in previous r/s
serena played a sOng fOr me ytd which sound nice
"cant imagine me w/o you"
though i didnt listen tO e lyrics
i dun wan tO see myself singing tat sOng

he tOld me tat he lOves me and he'll care mOre fOr me
thOugh i nOe guys can say One thing and mean anOther
i chOse tO believe
be it a lie Or truth
at least i wOnt affect my cOmmOn test and exam tO cOme
and i sincerely believe him