i dO lOve him. 可是我并不快了

我并不快了

i dun think anyOne knows as i think i've kept it well from ppl this time
i wanted tO pOst abt hOw i feel lOng time agO..
saved as draft. but this is e next One..

fOr thOse whO nOes me well enuff
it must be cOs Of r/s
am i expecting tOo much frOm him?
i hOpe nOt..
i jus feel tat i dun get e kind Of treatment a nOrmal guy wud give
i kept many things tO myself frOm him
i nOe he'll nOt change..
i nOe even if he changes, it'll jus be temporary
but stil..
i tried telling him sOme stuffs..
wad i received was.. Sorry..
Sorry isnt wad i wan..
i jus wish tat he can treat me better..
like hOw he used tO..

jus nOw, at his place, i almOst teared..
whenever we meet, almost 80 Or 90% Of time i can Onli see his back
dOes he nOe hOw i feel?
quantity Of time may be ther even thOu it has lessened..
bUt quality Of time isnt ther..

i dun which tO blOg everything abt Our r/s here
jus tat i need tO left it Out
i sO terrible bOttling it..

even thOu he mOst prObably will nOt visit this blOg..
i hOpe im nOt Offending him.
Sorry