love jere 1314

im almost breaking dOwn..
i noe im useless..
i turning 18 but i cant control my emotions well
i study..
but i cant focus properly..
study and think of him,
study and think of him..
ended up studying abit
slping earli instead of studying or watching tv
but e moment i wake up
he fills my thots
i cant get back to slp
im nO lOnger sec2..
i cant waste my time not studying agn
i noe..
i've learnt my lesson in sec2
but.. some things are so hard to control

im exhausted..
both mentally and physically
i cant slp well
i cant eat well
i noe im silly..
but i cant control my slp and appetite..

but im stil grateful to all my frens
like nik whO came over to my hse and bought me chicken rice 2 days ago..
kept me company..
enghow junyi who toked to me..
and many poly classmates

i told myself
i'll jus wait for him
study, dun worry so much
but still...
i cant
i miss him like crazy

i was so excited abt cny
but i realised w/o him by my side,
i dun feel it anymore
even gg to chinatown doesnt work

ppl.. dun scold me..
i noe i've let u ppl down
but these are my heartfelt words..
i jus feel like thrashing things out here tonite