exhausted!!!

the mOment nik and i came tO the assembly grOund this mOrning, Phua pOh pOh questiOned us already.. regarding the absence frOm her class.. we lied.. *sinned* but she sOmehOw didnt believe us at alL lO.. aft assembly, mdm lOh was the next One tO questiOn us.. lOlx.. nik didnt wanna explain further.. i jus said tat i kept feelin giddy and went hOme earlier! hahax.. i nOe i shdnt dO tat.. but these few days, im realli feeling tat way.. but nOt as seriOus as hOw it was last year.. she was sOmehOw wOrried.. im guilty~ IM SORRY.


friday.. this day im suppOsed tO be dismissed earli! instead, sku ended at 3....... straight aft recess! but we didnt even have time fOr that break.. had tO dO up math cOrrectiOns.. and it was alL the way math till 3! cOrrectiOns tO be dOne, math test tO take and fOllowed by a math tutOrial~ i planned tO dO sOme study aft sku.. but we're jus stressed and tired aft the math test man~ lucky it isnt raining tOday but damn hOt.. went tO the swing wit nik and learnt hOw tO swing higher.. aft tat we jus slacked thrOughout the whOle nOon!.. anyway, i enjOyed nik's accOmpany tOdae! it was fun!



but tml is a sat! a weekend! but.... we stil gOtta gO fOr extra lessOn! gOtta wake up earli~ this week im seeing nik everyday lO.. tml and sun fOr tuitiOn tOo.. Omg.. and im realli tired.. im feeling the stress.. but sOmehOw, we can stil slack.. jus pray hard that we'll nOt get tOo stress nOr tOo slack tOo~



my friendship wit junyi is always On and Off fOr the past few years.. until nOw.. i had been treating him cOldly.. mOstly due tO hOw i feel tat he's changing.. but these 2 days, the friendship seem tO be imprOving.. i noe he'll be ther tO suppOrt me.. but sOmehOw.. i cant trust him tOtally.. mb it's asO due tO the grp Of peOple he's miggling wit? i dOnt nOe.. i wOnder if Our frienship is gOnna last..

my rainny day

my rainny day-

i dun feel gOod tOdae.. nik and i skipped acc tutOrial.. it rainned and i thOt i wOnt be able tO play the swing.. but still, we went.. fOr tat mOment, i felt realli high.. aft tat, nik left wit wx while i went april's hse and fell aslp ther.. the day is sO sian..



my day is rainny.. all the mixed feelings.. 18/8/05 isnt a gOod day..



hOw many peOple can i actually trust?

beautiful illusiOns-

wOo.. i had my fun at cOurt tOdae.. cOmbined science tutOrials were cancelled! but.. stil gOtta wait fOr nik tO finish her O'level Oral.. think the Oral was quite alright fOr her.. able tO speak.. aft tat, we were suppOsed tO meet geOk nicOle at cOurt, but we gOt tempted by the swings near wx hse! erms.. i dOnt nOe hOw tO swing high and nik wants tO cOmpete~ lOlx.. luckily gOt nic tO push me.. the feeling Of swinging sO high is really GREAT.. very stress- free and it made my mOod became sO high.. i think we shd gO ther mOre Often!



the game was gOod~ but cOurt seemed really quiet.. it was dOminated by gals tOday! even kai xiang tat grp didnt cOme tO cOurt tOdae.. but smth terrible jus had tO happen.. geOk and her fren, anOther gal whOm we dOnt nOe, flipped nik's skirt On twO OccasiOns! nik was damn angry.. aft the game, she jus sat fOr awhile and went hm.. april and i fOllowed.. ended up taking a strOll.. nik scolded vulgarities man.. i was shOcked.. she was very angry and wx went tO cOurt and scOlded geOk.. i spOke tO him On the phOne.. sO fierce lO.. i didnt even nOe hOw tO handle him..



aft the thing, april and i went back tO cOurt tO play again.. i jus feel sO energetic tOday! tOk On phone wit nik fOr mOre than 2hrs~ tOk and tOk.. bOth Of us jus feel better aft tOking tO each Other.. perhaps its becOs we share the same kinda thinking.. anyway, i jus feel like saying this Out.. i miss him..



beautiful illusiOn-

saddie day

jus reached hm nOt lOng? im sO damn tired nOw.. left hm at 6 plus in the mOrning and came back at 5 plus tO bathe and have a quick meal and rushed tO meet nik fOr tuitiOn~ i dislike quick meals man.. i cant enjOy.. bOth Of us thOt Of bringing an umbrella, but in the end, nOne Of us brOught and it rained! lOlx.. lucki Our destinatiOn was jus drizzling..



had my O'levels English Oral tOdae.. everything was fine! befOre gOing in, i was sO tensed that i had tO keep singing tO calm myself dOwn.. One Of the invigilatOr was a caucasian.. luckily my grOup wasnt invigilated by her! i am quite sure that my Oral was well- taken.. able tO read and speak fluently..



btw, i gOt tO knOw smth which made my day rainy.. but i dOnt regret hearing it.. at least there are ppl ther fOr me.. esp nik.. thanks alOt..



i met the ice-cream uncle tOdae, selling ice- cream Outside the sku.. we spOke fOr quite a lOng time while waiting fOr april.. i've learnt smth frm him.. it's hard tO survive in the sOciety.. he tried many jObs and learnt many skills despite his *prOb* i realli admire him.. his will pOwer..



nik and i had a talk wit adrain befOre the tuitiOn.. many students made it fOr their O'levels even frOm a F9 result.. tO an A Or B.. we can tOo.. but aft seeing thOse results Of his ex-students, we felt stressed.. wad if we cant?



anyway, im stressed.. i gOtta play tml.. hOpe tat nik's Oral wilL gO smOothly tml..
may gOd bless her-

sleepless nite

it's gOnna be a sleepless night tOnight.. up til nOw, i stil dOnt feel like sleeping yet.. jus feel like blOgging.. even if i gO tO bed, i'll be listening tO pOwer 98 again.. fOr the past few nights, it kept me accOmpany.. Yes93.3 is sO bOring withOut Dj Ling Zhi's vOice..



i think i better fOrce myself tO slp.. Or i'll be sleeping in class tml.. Lights Offff, time tO be On bed nOw..

starriie me

i seriOusly cant put myself tO slp.. i need tO take a strOll.. i need it nOw.. hOw i wish this mOnth quickly pass and i'll gO fOr a strOll fOr the first night.. my starriie night.. it has been a lOng time ever since i went up ther tO lOok at the stars wit my brO.. last year! he wOnt gO wit me anymOre.. he's nOt even interested~



i dOnt feel gOod.. i need my hOney stars again.. had it ytd, but it had nO effect On me.. it used tO help.. hOwever, even if i realli wanna eat them nOw, ther is nO mOre left.. i need a break.. i need tO scream.. i missed my sec1 and sec3 days.. i miss kai ling, terrence, jarvis, mei hui, jOycelin, mrs yeo and her stares, her scOldings.. i miss my craziest mOments when i dOnt even need tO give a damn tO anyOne.. i miss my havOc times.. i miss thOse mOrning trainings.. i miss thOse days when i gO ard shOpping malls tO see babies.. im still nOt prepared tO face this 'dOg- eat- dOg' wOrld..



yes, sOmehOw junyi and nik are right abt me.. and i guess elye is asO getting tO understand mOre abt me..



starriiebaby-

i lOve him-

suppOsed to study wit nik aft sku.. but we saw this little bOy whO is sO cute.. jus under the blOck in frOnt Of the sku.. i was tempted and went Over and spent quite sOme time wit him and his granny.. lOlx.. he didnt allOw me tO carry him at first.. but i managed tO win his trust Over! shd i call it a trust? hahas.. anyway Ck came and surprisingly, he tOked abt the past.. abt tM.. at least he rmbs.. aft sO lOng, we have talked again.. aft all, we're stilL frens..


the vOmiting feeling is here again.. tOdae.. and i seriOusly hate it.. had my math tUitiOn tOdae.. adeline bOught a bOokmark fOr me which lOoks really cute.. bUt.. i've stOpped read bOoks since lOng agO.... anyway, i like it..


i'll be having my English O'level Oral tml.. kinda stressed Over the whOle O'levels.. i dO nOt noe if i can make it tO the pOly.. had physic tuitiOn ytd, math tOdae and chem tml.. aft mt Oral! tml gOtta take Physic mOck exam again and a math test tO prepare us fOr the One On friday.. is the sku crazy? i realli wOnder..



i wan my carefree life-

tUitiOn... stressssss

i have nO time tO surf the net tOnite! nOt even msn Or listening tO sOngs.. i had my 1st science tuitiOn wit nik tOdae.. it's physic tOdae.. bUt guess wad.. i brOught chem instead~ luckily nO bOoks were needed Or i'll be sO embarassed.. the place is sO damn deserted.. at first, we (nik, her mum and i) cudn't even find the tuitiOn centre.. alL the dOors were clOsed and we came across 2 peOple Onli! cant imagine hOw nik and i are gOing tO gO there On tue nite and gO hm frm ther..


the lessOn was alrite, but the students ther seem tO be like private candidates and gave us the wild feeling.. we were kinda shOck when they came in..



i think i'm starting tO feel the stress already.. my schedule is tightening~ my english O'level Oral is On tue man.. jus hOpe tat the Oral gOes smoOthly fOr me..

bObby's birthday-

went tOwn wit nik and wx tOday.. it was quite great but asO sian.. but at the end Of the shOpping, i bOught sOme stuffs.. the feeling was quite great.. then nik and i went tO the cOurt tO meet junhaO and alex.. cOurt was sO quiet tOdae.. Onli afew came dOwn.. nik went hm early..


and it's bObby's birthday tOdae.. kim li shOwed him a presentatiOn specially made fOr him.. it was wOnderful.. tOuching indeed.. think he had enjOyed himself tOday..


btw, i've gOt another tuitiOn again.. but wit nik.. fOr bOth phy and chem! tue and sun! tue wil end at nite! gOtta gO all the way tO p.s! mOn math tuitiOn.. tue asO have.. sun tOo.. anyway.. i jus hOpe tat during the O'levels, i can pass my science and hOpefulli get a B4? hOpe tat the O'levels wun stress me..

rainy day-

its anOther rainy day again.. it was sO cOld tat i cudnt cOncentrate in class and dOzed Off fOr awhile.. jus find tat histOry lessOn is getting mOre and mOre bOring.. gOt my O'level chi. result tOdae.. gOt a B3.. shd cOnsider it as a miracle.. i thOt i'll get a C5 or 6.. i didnt pay attentiOn in chi class fOr 2 yrs.. frm an A in sec One tO a C during the mid-yr examinatiOn this yr.. it shOcked me.. my O'level Oral wasnt tat gOod.. but i wOnder hOw can i get a distinctiOn.. everything seemed tO be a lie.. it dOesnt seem real at alL.. i dUn feel the real happiness frm it..
jus tOld my dad abt it.. he had nO reactiOn at alL.. wad is this suppOsed tO mean?



tOdae is realli a tiring day.. brOught nik hm aft sku while i have a shOwer befOre visiting jOvyn.. phy test was canceled.. i wanted tO learn hOw to carry bUnny.. but im still scared Of it.. nik and i wanted tO bath bUnny.. hahas.. bUt we dO nOt have the knOwledge Of dOing it at alL.. we didnt risk..



we ended up onli went chOmp chOmp to like sOmehow celebrated bObby's birthday.. they were tOo late tO visit jOvyn.. hOpe he recOvers sOon!